Here is my emo moment of the day
Another semester has come and gone, but this one is different. This time I"m losing people. Some of my closest people. I haven't really thought about it yet, and probably won't until after they are really gone from Starkville. It makes me sad because after next semester I won't have anyone. It's not like I can call Marielle up because she'll be out of the country for two years. And I do'nt want to think about how this will affect Reggie and I's friendship. I can't exactly be very convincing about beating him through a phone when he's 3 hours or 2 states away.
I was soo ready for high school to end I could taste it. I couldn't stand it or the people, so I got away as far as my parents income would let me. And it worked. I go home, and I don't have to pretend to like anyone that I see because in the end I don't live there anymore and don't have to care what they think. They aren't torturing me anymore. But I never expected to find the group of people that surround me when I came here. I never thought I could become the person I have or feel any differently about life's experiences thus far. And I'm scared to think of what is going to happen when my core group of support is gone, and I'm left. I've never thought about what would happen after college. Yeah, I know I have a major that I'm supposed to find a job with, but never have I really gone beyond believing and anticipating that there is going to come a time when I actually have to do this said job. That I'll have to start over in a new place, with new people, and with no parents just an hour and a half away. If there were a way to freeze this moment, that now would be my forever I would. But I can't. So I have to put back on my straight face, and like high school pretend that this change is not bothering me.
I was soo ready for high school to end I could taste it. I couldn't stand it or the people, so I got away as far as my parents income would let me. And it worked. I go home, and I don't have to pretend to like anyone that I see because in the end I don't live there anymore and don't have to care what they think. They aren't torturing me anymore. But I never expected to find the group of people that surround me when I came here. I never thought I could become the person I have or feel any differently about life's experiences thus far. And I'm scared to think of what is going to happen when my core group of support is gone, and I'm left. I've never thought about what would happen after college. Yeah, I know I have a major that I'm supposed to find a job with, but never have I really gone beyond believing and anticipating that there is going to come a time when I actually have to do this said job. That I'll have to start over in a new place, with new people, and with no parents just an hour and a half away. If there were a way to freeze this moment, that now would be my forever I would. But I can't. So I have to put back on my straight face, and like high school pretend that this change is not bothering me.