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I love being productive in my underwear.. I just made my car payment and a partial payment on my insurance from Chris' bed. Ahhh modern day technology is so refreshing.
So last night, I was supposed to go to Scott's house, I've been planning this for over a week. Monica invited Marie and Sarah and Jeff, and I invited Scotty, Tammy, Monica, Brian, and Jackie. And it was just going to be a ton of fun. But Chris was upset, and I understand, sometimes all too well I understand, and so I gave in and came up here, it's not that I didn't want to see him, I care more about him than a stupid party..and that's not going to change.. I just want sometime of social atmosphere..I wanna be able to hang out with my friends, drink casually on occasion and not worry about upsetting him.. but that doesn't look like it's going to be an option. I told him he can throw all the tempertantrums he wants next weekend, but I am going to Maine. Period, end of story, that's final. I just wish he could be like, go have fun, I'll talk to you later, instead of but I miss you and this is my time.. I mean again don't get me wrong, I am soooooo thrilled he finally feels this way.. and shows me attention and affection, I mean hello, I am in love with the kid, it's about time he felt the same way towards me.. it's just rough that's all.. With the distance and my days off from work not being the same as his, it's hard, real hard, but we're doing it, and beautifully if I say so myself.. but I feel like all my free time is spent on him, and I don't get to see my friends at school.. I am going to have to designate Tuesdays, Wednesdays to Chris, and make my weekends, Fridays, and Saturdays when I got to UNH to see Cassie, and such... I am going to visit my friends at college this year, and it's not fair of him to get all pissy when I have friends, yanno..
So last night, I was supposed to go to Scott's house, I've been planning this for over a week. Monica invited Marie and Sarah and Jeff, and I invited Scotty, Tammy, Monica, Brian, and Jackie. And it was just going to be a ton of fun. But Chris was upset, and I understand, sometimes all too well I understand, and so I gave in and came up here, it's not that I didn't want to see him, I care more about him than a stupid party..and that's not going to change.. I just want sometime of social atmosphere..I wanna be able to hang out with my friends, drink casually on occasion and not worry about upsetting him.. but that doesn't look like it's going to be an option. I told him he can throw all the tempertantrums he wants next weekend, but I am going to Maine. Period, end of story, that's final. I just wish he could be like, go have fun, I'll talk to you later, instead of but I miss you and this is my time.. I mean again don't get me wrong, I am soooooo thrilled he finally feels this way.. and shows me attention and affection, I mean hello, I am in love with the kid, it's about time he felt the same way towards me.. it's just rough that's all.. With the distance and my days off from work not being the same as his, it's hard, real hard, but we're doing it, and beautifully if I say so myself.. but I feel like all my free time is spent on him, and I don't get to see my friends at school.. I am going to have to designate Tuesdays, Wednesdays to Chris, and make my weekends, Fridays, and Saturdays when I got to UNH to see Cassie, and such... I am going to visit my friends at college this year, and it's not fair of him to get all pissy when I have friends, yanno..