Mommy wow, I'm a big girl now, boom boom
So I think I found a new route to Chris', I think I like the old one better, but this one might be less miles.. but still it's boring, and less highway so I drive slower. Besides, who knows how many more times I'll drive here, I need a change of atmosphere, and unless a certain someone can create a new situation for me.. then well, we'll see what happens.
So yeah, anyway..today was day 4 of my 11 days of work in a row, no day off.. it wasn't bad, probably because it's still part of my normal weekly schedule, tomorrow I assume will suck, #1 I have to work with Faye, #2 I am in the Deli 11-7, #3 It's Monday, and as of recently it's my day off. Oh well.
So I brought things here with me tonight, that Chris might expect me to have brought, but I am not going to tell Chris.. we both know he wont mention them, doing something that will make me smile is like pulling teeth for him, I swear. That's one of my issues with this whole thing, I do things, and I soon regret them, I try to be a good gf, but maybe I just give myself too much credit, or maybe I should just stop making the efforts, and see if he even fucking notices..I don't know. THat's the problem, I just simply don't know anymore, I don't know why I put up with some of the bullshit I put up with, I don't know what I want out of this situation. Ijustdon'tknowanymore.
I give up on this entry, and I kinda hope no one reads it.
So yeah, anyway..today was day 4 of my 11 days of work in a row, no day off.. it wasn't bad, probably because it's still part of my normal weekly schedule, tomorrow I assume will suck, #1 I have to work with Faye, #2 I am in the Deli 11-7, #3 It's Monday, and as of recently it's my day off. Oh well.
So I brought things here with me tonight, that Chris might expect me to have brought, but I am not going to tell Chris.. we both know he wont mention them, doing something that will make me smile is like pulling teeth for him, I swear. That's one of my issues with this whole thing, I do things, and I soon regret them, I try to be a good gf, but maybe I just give myself too much credit, or maybe I should just stop making the efforts, and see if he even fucking notices..I don't know. THat's the problem, I just simply don't know anymore, I don't know why I put up with some of the bullshit I put up with, I don't know what I want out of this situation. Ijustdon'tknowanymore.
I give up on this entry, and I kinda hope no one reads it.