Emotion Sickness Once Again
An update on my life at this moment. Last saturday I went to my first party in over a year and a half. It was a ton of fun. I didn't drink because we all know I don't do that...(*cough*) no seriously guys, the last time I drank was in Italy. And then the last time I was "drunk" was july 6th. I wouldn't even really call it drunk, but I was on my way...But all drinking topics beside, I was at this party. Everyone was pretty much hooking up or already hooked up and so I was there all by myself. The party was still fun though and I had a great time because I got to hang out with Nick who I havent seen since well he and Shannon broke up. So we had a good time. After the party I came home and I just got really lonely. I really had this incredible urge to ( and I know this sounds so stupid ) kiss someone. It's just that the last person I kissed was Leah, and I just feel pretty lonely. So I was sitting there all wrapped up in my own self-pity, and then my little kid brother jeremy is IMing me and telling me about how much in love he and lisa are and sweet stuff that they've experienced. And then Katie, Robb's girlfriend IMed me and told me about how in love she was with Robb and them cuddling and stuff. And then I got offline. I was about to gag on my finger, mostly because I was so jealous. So I call Mandy because she always makes me feel better and she answers but she's at GSP reunion laying down staring into the eyes of Jacob, her man-crush, so I just hung up. I then proceeded to call Jennifer, who was walking under the stars with Chris, her love. I threw the phone down and totally decided that for some reason my loneliness was being rubbed in my face. That night was the first time in a long time that I had indeed felt that unattached. I just wanted to feel love for that one minute. I wanted to know what it felt like. And that was then that I finally decided that I was emotionally unstable.
Anyways on to more important things, i have a new favorite song! It's pretty awesome! It's called "Dirty Little Secret" and it is by the All-American Rejects.
Summer has come and passed. The innocent can never last. This summer I saw no summer lovin'. I thought I was going to at some points, but it didn't happen. It doesn't really matter now though i guess. I guess it is not my time, and I have accepted that.
Sydney's dad thought I liked her which is hilarious...Mr. Moeller is one fly dude. From the plaid shorts to the button-up shirts, he will always be my twin. Unfortunately! Hahah. just kidding.
This year is so much different at school. I just want to relax and enjoy my senior year, but I can't find the time. College is right around the corner and it scares the freaking hell out of me. I can't wait to leave my house and be on my own, but then leaving everyone behind. Leaving Life Teen. Leaving what I have tried so hard to build up for myself. It will all be gone and I'll have to start over. Sometimes I imagine this will be a good thing, but then at other times, I see that its so scary and terrifying.
Oh yeah I have another favorite song too. "Just the girl" by the Click Five. It's good too. Oh well this is long enough, im out.
"Californication"
Anyways on to more important things, i have a new favorite song! It's pretty awesome! It's called "Dirty Little Secret" and it is by the All-American Rejects.
Summer has come and passed. The innocent can never last. This summer I saw no summer lovin'. I thought I was going to at some points, but it didn't happen. It doesn't really matter now though i guess. I guess it is not my time, and I have accepted that.
Sydney's dad thought I liked her which is hilarious...Mr. Moeller is one fly dude. From the plaid shorts to the button-up shirts, he will always be my twin. Unfortunately! Hahah. just kidding.
This year is so much different at school. I just want to relax and enjoy my senior year, but I can't find the time. College is right around the corner and it scares the freaking hell out of me. I can't wait to leave my house and be on my own, but then leaving everyone behind. Leaving Life Teen. Leaving what I have tried so hard to build up for myself. It will all be gone and I'll have to start over. Sometimes I imagine this will be a good thing, but then at other times, I see that its so scary and terrifying.
Oh yeah I have another favorite song too. "Just the girl" by the Click Five. It's good too. Oh well this is long enough, im out.
"Californication"