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Yeah, I lied. I'm not able to hate you. Sometimes I wish I could. But, I can't. I have barely talked to you for the last couple of months. I get really scared I'll never talk to you again. I guess you probably really don't care, it's not like you've done a lot to talk to me. I hope your life is going well. I hope everything you've been doing lately has been enjoyable. You've seemed pretty cheerful lately. I remember when I told myself it would all be forever. I guess I was wrong. But I can't not talk to you. Yet, I can't bring myself to talk to you, because every time I do, we talk about the most insipid things. I guess I'd kind of understand if a friendship never worked out, but I really really hope it will. I'm glad you're happy. I really honestly am. And I really do want to talk to you. And I really do care. I do. No matter how much you actively deny it, I do. I feel horrible for wanting to hate you. I just don't like some of the things you do. You affect people in a lot of ways. I guess we all do. They say you learn from your mistakes, but I dont know how this was a mistake. You are really frustrating sometimes. I don't know how I've functioned like this. I don't.
I miss you.
We'll never make another memory.
♥
Across Five Aprils-A Year From Now
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
I miss you.
We'll never make another memory.
♥
Across Five Aprils-A Year From Now
Complete and total adoration,
My gift to you, my heart was yours.
In ten weeks you shaped it,
In one night you murdered it.
Torn from my chest and laid at your feet,
That first step that you took was the worst.
Since then you've walked a thousand miles in solace and short remark,
And I still have these memories,
But we'll never see what we could have been.
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember. cause that's all you can do.
We'll never make another memory,
We'll never make another memory.
I wish I'd have died in your arms the last time we were together,
So I wouldn't have to wake without you today.
This time I thought things were real.
You said they were.
What happened?
You were a priority,
Was I an option?
I let you see a side of me that I don't share with anyone.
Promises are just words unless they are fulfilled.
you knew from the beginning all I had to offer you was my heart,
I'm sorry that wasn't enough.
So, we'll go our own ways,
And hopefully you'll remember the things I've told you,
Hopefully you'll understand that everything I said was in sincerity.
A broken heart is not what I wanted from this,
But I guess I've learned from it.
But aren't you supposed to learn from your mistakes?
I don't consider this a mistake,
I just wish the story didn't end this way,
Cause I'm still in love with the person who helped me write it.
Remember when you held my hand like you'd never let it go?
Remember when we talked about where we'd be a year from now?