Help me I am in hell...
Okay so of all things that can happen to mess with one's head I have drilling and screaming through my skull some kind of messed up combo of KoRn and NIN. I am listen alternately to trent saying "I tried and I gave up" and Johnathan Davis screaming "Why don't you get the fuck out of my face" so yes the songs for today are NIN-Gave Up and Korn-Good God... and not just any version of "Good God" The one that is actually done with Rammstein doing the instrumental... so yeah I'm fucked in the head right now... I am angry, I am pissed off... I am a pretty hate machine... no wait ah screw it... and no I don't know why... maybe pulling one of my wonderful tricks of converting just about any emotion into anger... prolly angry at myself for feeling anything at all and then I go and push the anger outwardly and start to express it... so yes I'm an angry person... only angry because no matter how hard I try to regulate and control my emotions eventually they hit a point where they start to fuck with me so then of course I need to delve into anger a bit and use it as a tool to fight back the demons of emotion. I envision a day where I don't have to do this where I can fully and completely express my feelings... but until that day deal with the fact I may not get happy but I sure as hell can get angry.
One final thought naw screw it nobody needs to know what I think anymore.
One final thought naw screw it nobody needs to know what I think anymore.