I Love You but I've Chosen Sadness

[spectralbovine]

This is my life.

I can't choose among all my poetically miserable pre-cut bits, so I guess I will refrain. I wish I weren't this neurotic. I wish I could actually believe that something good lies ahead. Oh, whoops, that's not refraining.

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[jeeperstseepers]

Oh, were you away when all that happened? My office computer, my main laptop, and the new Netbook I'd just bought all got a hideous virus. My laptop (Cambelle, who you met) got it last, when I was able to immediately recognize the signs. I immediately ran bunches of malware and antivirus scans, because as the virus progresses, it blocks all virus and malware scans, and then it blocks all applications. But in those very beginning stages, you can still run things. So I did, and I MIGHT have fixed everything, but I don't know for sure. It's been weeks, and I still haven't been using Cambelle because I'm not in an emotional place right now to be able to deal with it if the virus manifests itself and I need to reformat the hard drive like I had to with the office computer and Netbook. So I've been using my Netbook at home (which is difficult to type on, and not the best with streaming video), and I've been avoiding pretty much any website that miiiiiight hurt it. Such as Megaupload, which has weird pop-ups and all kind of shady animated ads. Pretty much all the links for downloading TV are Megaupload and Mediafire.

[spectralbovine]

I still haven't been using Cambelle because I'm not in an emotional place right now to be able to deal with it if the virus manifests itself and I need to reformat the hard drive like I had to with the office computer and Netbook.
We are so alike.

I'm really sorry you got a virus. I live in fear of such things.

[ikcelaks]

Is it certain that Cambelle was infected? I thought she came up clean?

[jeeperstseepers]

The second time. But remember we scanned it first and a list of things showed up and I clicked to fix them? There's no question the beginning of the virus showed up: I got those fake virus program evil pop-ups.

[spectralbovine]

My laptop (Cambelle, who you met)
Who now? Oooh:

Tiffani showed me her laptop, Campbell. "This is what I talk to you on." Eee! I asked her why it was named Campbell, and she said she had told me before.

"You say a lot of things," I replied. So she told me the story, and it didn't sound familiar to me at all. But if she thought she'd told me, she probably did. We do talk a lot.
And, uh...yeah, I have again forgotten the origin of the name.

[jeeperstseepers]

When it was ordered, but before it arrived, I'd decided to call it Cam, because it was white like a Mac, but it was a PC, which is the opposite. Then it arrived and I took it out of the box and looked at it, and the name Belle came to mind. I felt bad giving up "Cam," since it had been the plan for quite a while.

'Course, Campbell is a guy's name. So while I'm not entirely certain of Cambelle's gender, I believe he may be a gay male.

[spectralbovine]

Hee! That is a cute story. I should remember it. And now even if I don't, I can read this and pretend I did.