For the five people who are still using Livejournal, this is to you...
I just typed "I have had a great time in Ireland," but I erased that. Then I wrote "I have had a shitty time in Ireland," and erased that too. Saying that I had a "good growth experience" is too cliche and who can judge their own growth? So basically, it comes down to "I have had time in Ireland" which is exactly how I feel. I have had my ups and downs, my laughs and my cries. My long weekends on buses stuck behind cow herders while singing Get Low and my late night bra sessions with Ana. Every moment I spent here I was doing something I could've never done at home and for that, I am grateful.
But I will only be here for one semester.
I am fully capable of handling this for a year and up until a few weeks ago, I was all ready to do so. There were trips around Europe in the making and school projects I had started, then I realized it wasn't worth it. I have had my adventure and quite frankly, I don't need a year of it. I have juiced this Irish Lemon for all it has (please nod and shake your heads 'yes' as if that makes sense) and now I just want home.
Educationally, it is also neccessary. I used to believe I pretended to be interested in learning to suck up to the teachers, but I now know I actually do care. I want to study and take tests and write papers and all these things aren't offered to me here. I know I am learning otabout how to handle myself socially and interact with people in a foreign country, all the reasons I actually came for. Well, my friends, consider that learnt (new word meaning something you learned...if it is already in the dictionary, Webster, I apologize). I was wrong in believeing I needed a year of experience to make it real, but I was not wrong in coming. Don't once think I regret it or I don't have loads of pictures and stories, cause I do. It's just almost over.
SO now I can prepare for spring concerts and poetry slams and pride marches and 2Ks and visiting Jessie and taking Honors Geometry with Mr. Ogreziack. Trust me on this, it will be fun.
But I will only be here for one semester.
I am fully capable of handling this for a year and up until a few weeks ago, I was all ready to do so. There were trips around Europe in the making and school projects I had started, then I realized it wasn't worth it. I have had my adventure and quite frankly, I don't need a year of it. I have juiced this Irish Lemon for all it has (please nod and shake your heads 'yes' as if that makes sense) and now I just want home.
Educationally, it is also neccessary. I used to believe I pretended to be interested in learning to suck up to the teachers, but I now know I actually do care. I want to study and take tests and write papers and all these things aren't offered to me here. I know I am learning otabout how to handle myself socially and interact with people in a foreign country, all the reasons I actually came for. Well, my friends, consider that learnt (new word meaning something you learned...if it is already in the dictionary, Webster, I apologize). I was wrong in believeing I needed a year of experience to make it real, but I was not wrong in coming. Don't once think I regret it or I don't have loads of pictures and stories, cause I do. It's just almost over.
SO now I can prepare for spring concerts and poetry slams and pride marches and 2Ks and visiting Jessie and taking Honors Geometry with Mr. Ogreziack. Trust me on this, it will be fun.