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would you run and never look back? would you cry if you saw me crying? would you save my soul tonight? would you tremble if i touched your lips? would you laugh? oh please tell me this. now would you die for the one you loved? hold me in your arms. tonight. am i in too deep? have i lost my mind?
Sphinx17: we should be out of here and onto the next mission the last week this month, so only another 2 weeks
Sphinx17: please be safe
Sphinx17: LOVE YOU VERY MUCH
tonight i found out what its gonna be like. Not being home for the next couple months is going to be so hard. i found out what its going to be like, trying to find people to go to, trying to find people who understand what its like, and as great as my friends are, they just cant fulfill that.
i want my mom and dad. i want my sisters. they know because theyre with me in this.
i am so so scared.
i dont want him going back there.
its almost worse, the second time around. because we have an idea of what hes going through.
no one should have to go through that.
and i feel so selfish, because once he came back i stopped thinking about everyone else over there. i didnt wanna think about it anymmore because i didnt need to.
and im looking out of my window now. its snowing. and theres this american flag flying right outside. and i almost cant understand it.
this is so messed up.
i just dont know.
and i thought id be handling this better.
its just that, i never know if that time i talk to him, itll be the last. because it could be. and thats what i hate.
i try making myself so busy during the day that im exhausted at night and i can just fall asleep without any dreams.
but those nightmares are coming back again. the same ones.
two weeks two weeks two weeks
Sphinx17: we should be out of here and onto the next mission the last week this month, so only another 2 weeks
Sphinx17: please be safe
Sphinx17: LOVE YOU VERY MUCH
tonight i found out what its gonna be like. Not being home for the next couple months is going to be so hard. i found out what its going to be like, trying to find people to go to, trying to find people who understand what its like, and as great as my friends are, they just cant fulfill that.
i want my mom and dad. i want my sisters. they know because theyre with me in this.
i am so so scared.
i dont want him going back there.
its almost worse, the second time around. because we have an idea of what hes going through.
no one should have to go through that.
and i feel so selfish, because once he came back i stopped thinking about everyone else over there. i didnt wanna think about it anymmore because i didnt need to.
and im looking out of my window now. its snowing. and theres this american flag flying right outside. and i almost cant understand it.
this is so messed up.
i just dont know.
and i thought id be handling this better.
its just that, i never know if that time i talk to him, itll be the last. because it could be. and thats what i hate.
i try making myself so busy during the day that im exhausted at night and i can just fall asleep without any dreams.
but those nightmares are coming back again. the same ones.
two weeks two weeks two weeks