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you know that feeling, when you have a handful of sand grasped in your fist and it keeps seeping out no matter what you do?
i need to leave this town so i can leave danny behind. being here is being in limbo. either send me to paradise or to hell. enough of this lingering. i dont wanna talk or think about him. i dont really talk about him so much, but those thoughts of him are just too frequent and too much.
all i want is to wander into the irish irish section of boston and never re-emerge. i'll learn how to speak irish and marry some mick with an accent and a ridiculous sense of humour and well get over those unforgettable first loves and laugh and cry and dance and feel his hand touch my neck and his lips kiss my hair and have kids and give them nearly impossible names to pronounce and struggle and know that its all worth it because its everything i could ever ask for and fall into that whole scene just like ive imagined ever since i can remember. there is so much love inside of me and i love so many people but i need someone to love like that.
Gráim thú
cronaím thú
grá mo chroí
le grá go deo
the people i hung out with tonite are great. but not when they get together. because most of them change when they are around that group of people. and it sucks. its not gonna change, its just how it is. but the reason i dont like going to kevins house is because every is out to impress someone else.
i hate that.
the highlight of my night was definately talking to nina online.
startford countdown: t minus 7 hours
be back friday...
*heart
i need to leave this town so i can leave danny behind. being here is being in limbo. either send me to paradise or to hell. enough of this lingering. i dont wanna talk or think about him. i dont really talk about him so much, but those thoughts of him are just too frequent and too much.
all i want is to wander into the irish irish section of boston and never re-emerge. i'll learn how to speak irish and marry some mick with an accent and a ridiculous sense of humour and well get over those unforgettable first loves and laugh and cry and dance and feel his hand touch my neck and his lips kiss my hair and have kids and give them nearly impossible names to pronounce and struggle and know that its all worth it because its everything i could ever ask for and fall into that whole scene just like ive imagined ever since i can remember. there is so much love inside of me and i love so many people but i need someone to love like that.
Gráim thú
cronaím thú
grá mo chroí
le grá go deo
the people i hung out with tonite are great. but not when they get together. because most of them change when they are around that group of people. and it sucks. its not gonna change, its just how it is. but the reason i dont like going to kevins house is because every is out to impress someone else.
i hate that.
the highlight of my night was definately talking to nina online.
startford countdown: t minus 7 hours
be back friday...
*heart