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i really want to go to grad school. i am researching historical archaeology programs. so far i've found a couple that look really good (one in boston, one in illinois, and, of course, william and mary) but i am very concerned that no school will want to accept me. honestly, who would? i'm not that smart, i'm not that hard-working, and i'm not that experienced. i'm just about the most mediocre person ever. and that's speaking highly of myself. argh. should i even bother to try? i don't want to fail. i already have low enough self-esteem. but if i don't try, my mother will be insufferable. it's an impossible decision. if i decide to try, i should do it soon. my year in china will go quickly. GREs or whatever tests i need to take will be difficult from abroad though. i don't know if i should bother to try yet, if at all. argh. i wish i didn't suck.
in other news, i have a visa again. i navigated DC all by myself, including bus and walking. hooray me. however, because the school did not give me my papers on time, i only have a tourist visa, so i must go to the visa office in beijing to get it changed. crappy. but at least i can get back into the country.
in other news, i have a visa again. i navigated DC all by myself, including bus and walking. hooray me. however, because the school did not give me my papers on time, i only have a tourist visa, so i must go to the visa office in beijing to get it changed. crappy. but at least i can get back into the country.