Title: Right Under Your Nose
Pairing/Group: Akanishi Jin/ Nakamaru Yuuichi
Rating: R
Warnings: Smut
Notes: Written for
je_holiday fic exchange for
encoded_panties . Big thankyous to
deathnote13 for the beta. :D
Originally posted
here.
Summary: Jin loses his lover to actual love and now has to learn how to fend for himself in the scary world of dating and rejection.
It's not that Jin didn't like what he had going on with Ryo. It's just that, as good as it was, it was getting in the way of ... stuff. They'd been good mates since they were kids and no amount of appreciation for the friends-with-benefits arrangement was going to change the fact that Ryo's eyes kept hinting at 'that sappy stuff that guys don't talk about' whenever Ryo managed to work Kato into the conversation.
So Jin stepped out of the way and back into the plain old 'good friend' spot. And Ryo had appreciated it. (Even if he still hadn't managed to convince Kato to fill the empty spot that was left in his bed.)
The problem came from the fact that Jin was actually a fairly shy kind of guy; as was Ryo. Which was why their arrangement had always been a bit too perfect - they’d never needed to actually leave their comfort zones and ‘meet’ people, but that was different now. Ryo was gone and if Jin ever wanted to get any action again he was going to have to learn how to hit on people in a non-cheesy kind of way.
The idea of hitting on a fan was unsavoury to Jin. There was something so wrong with being wanted just because he could get on stages and make girls squeal. It was all just a bit too superficial. Problem being that Jin didn't think it was all that possible to succeed in hitting on someone who wasn't a fan. He'd tried it in America. Twice. He crashed and burned horribly both times. So now he was just too much of a chicken to try again. Besides which, he didn't really want a one night stand or a random person. If there was one thing that Jin had learnt over the years in the spotlight it was don't trust people you don't know, because they think they know you and will act like they have the right to more liberties than they actually do.
Still, after two months of nothing but self service, Jin was slowly starting to get horribly desperate. Hell he'd even caught himself considering a couple of the older juniors. That was when he knew it was time to get help.
Pi had always vehemently refused to discuss Jin's sex life from the moment he'd found out that his two best friends were sleeping together and somehow Jin just knew that discussing the problems that a lack of Ryo's ass had caused wasn't going to be any more welcomely received.
Besides which, the only friends he was able to see with his current schedule would be his bandmates and really...
Junno was just hopeless, Koki dated AV actresses, Ueda was a giant sap with dominance issues, and Kame was banned from that kind of topic ever since teenaged Jin realised that Kame invited himself over for sleepovers, not to hang out with Jin, but to perv on Jin's mum in her summer pyjamas. This left Nakamaru, who was awkward, and nervous, and basically a human failbot. But if Maru could be like that and still get an occasional date then maybe he was the perfect person to talk to.
~~*~~
Maru's drink sprayed halfway across of Jin's living room.
"You want advice about WHAT?"
"You heard me." Jin got up and wandered into the kitchen to get a towel and mop up Maru's beer spray.
"B-but you're Akanishi Jin!"
Jin grimaced and explained the whole Ryo situation and how it had come to an end, looking at nothing but the cleaning task before him. He wasn't avoiding looking at Maru. He was just cleaning. Really.
"So you've really only ever been with one guy?"
"Yeah, but to be fair that guy was Ryo; he's a kinky bastard. It's not like I have any less experience than the next guy my age. It's just experience with less people involved."
"So what are you asking me?"
"How to find someone to sleep with when I'm too much of a coward to hit on anyone; basically, how do you get girls?"
"I don't."
"You talk about going on dates and stuff. I've heard you chatting with Ueda and Kame. I've seen you get nervous and dress up before you leave work. I know you date; you've got to have some advice."
"Well, yeah, I date. I'm not the one who sets the dates up though. Generally they ask me out or a friend sets us up. Smarmy pick up lines really only work in movies or on disgustingly drunk people who made the decision to go home with someone before they got drunk."
Maru said it like it was obvious and Jin suddenly felt the need to take his overheated face back into the kitchen to rinse the towel out.
Okay, so he was stupid and oblivious and even Maru knew better than him. Not a good sign. At this rate he was never going to get laid again.
"Jin," Maru appeared in the door with creases on his forehead, "Are you okay?"
"Yeah."
"You don't seem okay."
"Well, I'm faced with the idea of life without sex. I don't like the idea of one night stands, I can't afford to have a relationship without my manager killing me, and I have no chance of finding a guy who's going to put up with all that and still give a shit when I say something's too kinky for me."
"So basically you just want a relationship."
Jin froze at that. Could you want a relationship without having a certain person in mind? Wasn't that a little ridiculous?
"I don't really know."
"Well, if you just want a nice guy to play with you could have me, but other than that, I can really only suggest online dating or getting someone to set you up with whoever they think would work."
"What do you mean I could have you?"
"It means that I wouldn't say no; you're a good guy and you're hot," Maru shrugged and played with his beer bottle, "But maybe you could give the net dating a try. Just don't use your real name or your photo."
Jin completely ignored the latter half of Maru's statement, choosing instead to fixate on the part where his friend had said he was hot.
"I didn't think you were into guys. I know you dated a couple when we were younger but you seemed to be more interested in girls since, well... You like girls."
"I like both."
"So I could kiss you right now and you wouldn't mind?" Jin was still trying to figure out how this came about. Did Maru just hit on him?
"I might mind. I don't want to be kept around for countless years until you decide you've fallen in love with someone else and just end it like you did to Ryo. If you sleep with me, you have to date me. You know; with emotions and stuff." Maru tapped at his nose, but Jin was so used to the nervous gesture that he barely noticed it.
"It's not my fault it didn't grow into love with Ryo. We're good friends and we were attracted to each other. You can't just blame me for it not turning into more than that. I'm not incapable of the emotional stuff; I've just never tried it."
Maru put down his beer and stepped forward a little.
"Are you interested in trying?"
Jin took a deep breath. Was he really going to do this? This is Maru! But somehow it wasn't a weird idea at all. Hell, just at the moment it was a damned hot idea.
Jin nodded.
Maru stepped forward and placed himself just in front of Jin. They were almost perfectly eye to eye. That was new; Jin was used to a little up and down in the height department. Maru's lips were different too; thicker, plumper. Jin licked at them and felt anticipation tickling down his spine.
Maru's arms were wrapped around his rib cage, fingers threaded through Jin's hair. It may have started like a simple kiss but one or possibly both of them, Jin wasn’t sure who, had pulled them in until it was a desperate meeting of mouths. Jin had never kissed like this before. There was a burning heat thrilling beneath his skin and making him feel far more desperate than a single kiss should be able to cause.
Jin cursed and hoisted Maru up onto the countertop, stepping forward until his hips were nestled between Maru's thighs. Jin's shirt ended up on top of the microwave and Maru's hands went tracing their way down Jin's chest. Gorgeous, elegant fingers smoothing down to play with the ridges of Jin's six pack.
"Are you just going to watch me touch you or are you going to kiss me?"
Jin snapped out of his reverie and looked up at his new lover.
"No point starting if I'm just going to have to stop again; I'll wait until you take your shirt off."
Maru smirked at that and put his arms up in the air.
"Go on then."
"Big baby." Jin grabbed the hem of the shirt and pulled it off roughly, irked that he didn't get to watch Maru do it himself.
Maru chuckled, obviously pleased at annoying Jin and dove back in for another kiss. Jin got over it fairly quickly once the beat boxer invaded his mouth. He could get used to this; hell, he could get addicted to it.
“I like your lips.” Jin mumbled against Maru's mouth and set about sucking the lower one.
Maru didn't respond other than groaning and wrapping his legs around Jin's waist. Soft fingers trickled down his spine and he decided that there was no point drawing this out longer than he needed to.
He grabbed at Maru's backside and pulled him forward, off the bench and into his arms. Maru caught on quickly and supported as much of his weight as he could with legs against Jin's hips and arms braced against his shoulders. Maru was only just lighter than Jin but somehow he managed to carry him more than halfway to the bedroom before he needed to brace against the wall. Jin trapped Maru between himself and the wall, grinding against his friend and suckling at his neck but Maru still seemed to know why they'd stopped and bought his feet back down to the ground.
Maru's light fingertips teased their way along skin, over Jin's shoulders, down oversensitive collarbones, across aroused nipples, down secretly sensitive sides until they reached Jin's belt and set to work on removing it.
“Oh God, Maru stop.”
“Why?”
“It's been a while for me and--”
“It's been two months.”
“Well, that's the longest I've ever gone without. It's a long time for me and you said that I should do this properly,” Jin took a steadying breath and just about kicked himself for what he was about to do, “If we're going to actually date, with the 'emotions and stuff' then I need to warn you that I'm not going to last long enough to do this properly.”
“I know. That's why I was working on getting my hand down your pants. We'll get you off nice and quick and then we can have sex.” Maru leaned in to kiss Jin, licking at the corners of his mouth.
Jin groaned and let himself give in to what was being offered to him. If this was any example of how the future was going to play out, then Nakamaru Yuichi may just be the best boyfriend on Earth.
Maru's hand finally made it down his pants and the touch of skin on skin was such a damned relief. Jin groaned and nipped at Maru's mouth, loving the way the plump flesh slid beneath his teeth. Maru deepened this kiss as his hand began to stroke in a quick, twisting rhythm.
Jin swore under his breath and let his head fall to Maru's shoulder as a sweat broke out across his skin. Maru rested his free hand on Jin's shoulder, as though trying to steady him, but then moved his hand down a little and let his thumb stroke back and forth across the collarbone it found.
It took an embarrassingly short time before Jin fell over the edge, grunting in time to Maru's movements and clinging to the elder man's shoulders as he came, white light prickling behind his eyes.
Maru's hand, still in Jin's underwear, gripped wetly at Jin's hip as his legs gave out. He had to rearrange their arms in a flurry of awkward limbs until he was able to support Jin's weight.
“Are you alright?”
“I've never come that hard before. I... that was... thank you.” Jin smiled lamely and tried not to lean too heavily on his new ... lover? Boyfriend?
Maru snorted, “And you thought my skills at making soap foam were lame. Considering you just benefitted from those skills, I don't think you'll ever be allowed to make fun of them again.”
“I absolutely promise.”
“I'll hold you to that. And speaking of holding, can you walk or should we sit down here for a minute.”
“I can walk! Let's go to bed.” Jin wobbled down the hall for almost three steps before Maru came up beside him and held him up.
“Maybe we should leave part two for the morning. You look like you need a little more recovery time.”
Jin was horrified at that idea. There was no way he was going to return the best hand job of his life by leaving Maru hanging - or rather not hanging, as the case may be.
As soon as Jin was sitting on the edge of his bed, he pulled Maru forward and nuzzled at his stomach.
“Jin?”
“You might be right about leaving the actual sex 'til later, but for now I think it's your turn to see stars.”
Jin kept nuzzling at Maru's soft little stomach as he undid his pants and pulled them down around his knees.
“Jin you really don't need to d-- Ahh~” Maru grasped onto Jin's hair the moment the warmth enveloped him. Jin chose to ignore that that probably meant he had his own junk messed into his hair, focusing instead on the weight of Maru against his tongue, sliding against the roof of his mouth.
He took in as much as he could, leaving only half a handful at the base. Maru was making little keening sounds at the back of his throat and rocking slightly on the spot, creating more of the friction than Jin was. Jin waited until the very last moment he could before pulling back.
He tried to draw it out as much as possible, enjoying the new sensations of being with someone new for the first time. He experimented with a whole range of things that Ryo had only ever gotten on his birthday, seeing what would cause new sounds to slip from Maru's lips.
When Jin tried a particularly wicked move involving the underside of his tongue and his own style of beat boxing he was rewarded with a loud groan that sounded suspiciously like swearing and a mouthful of flesh as Maru lost control and thrust into Jin's mouth, coming as he bumped the back of Jin's throat.
Jin swallowed him down and looked up at Maru's embarrassed face. He couldn't help but smile and run his fingers along the backs of Maru's thighs.
“Sorry.”
“Don't be; I like that I can get you to lose control.”
Maru flushed even redder than he already was and averted his eyes. Jin was having none of that. There was no point in getting shy now.
“Come here.” Jin pulled Maru's hips down, intending for the elder man to end up in his lap. Instead, he fell on Jin's face before falling off sideways onto the bed.
“Oh, hell!”
Jin looked down and realised that Maru's skinny leg jeans were still where Jin had left them, bunched up around Maru's knees.
“Shit, sorry,” he apologised and moved to pull off the jeans entirely, “I forgot I did that.”
“So did I. Did I hurt you?”
“Nope.” Jin wrestled the pants off and climbed back up the mattress to lie with Maru.
He rested his head on the pillow and helped Maru readjust so they were both lying properly along the length of the bed. Maru rolled onto his side and began running his fingers over Jin's chest in soothing patterns.
“Go to sleep, ne.”
“Mmm.” Jin let his eyes fall closed as Maru's fingers continued their circuit across his skin.
He could definitely get addicted to this.