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today has been sooooooo great. i was never without cigarettes. pat hooked it up big-time. i got my new bowling ball that is the shit. i even found out i have $233 i did not know i had. i've just been in a great mood all day. then i came home and read a few lj's and one of them sent a shock through my body. and now i'm not in a good mood. as a matter of fact, i'm kinda sad. why did i do it to myself again? i guess i need to get over this shit and quit looking at those beatiful pictures because it's not going to happen. and now, i have to live with that. i am such an idiot :(