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i will be headstrong. i will move on from everything. as much as it hurts now, it won't in the future, and realizing that is the key to my success and my maturity. i will bite my tongue or put my hand over my mouth when i need to. i WILL say no to you. every day, screening your calls and your texts will get easier and easier, and when i leave for college things will DEFINITELY be the same but with more clarity. i won't hold a grudge, but i'm not looking for a friendship. you were the best and worst thing that i've had as far as relationships, but i'm not beating you dead with a stick anymore. i deserve better than you could have ever given me. than you could have even realized i deserved. but one day, eventually, you will be the one thing that didn't get handed back to you on a silver plate. the one thing you couldn't get back. the steady realization of how alone you are and how much you need(ed) me will sink in. but by this time, i will be long gone. and very, very fucking happy.