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xmas update! Hope everyone has been having fun with the holidays. I've been relaxing (getting baked) with Margaret and enjoying gifts. The holidays themselves were a little weak this year. I felt like all the family meals I had with my family were strange and a little distanced or something. My gifts made me feel like I'm not a kid anymore. I asked for a Zune but instead of that I got a winter jacket, a foam pad for my bed and a printer and toner cartridge. Don't get me wrong, that was quite nice (my foam pad kicks ass), but it did make me feel a little disconnected from the idea of myself as a kid (like one who gets toys for xmas). I guess this was really only with these family events that I felt a little weird. Xmas break's been relieving from the last few weeks of school. I've gotten to just chill with Margaret every day and see friends which has been nice. I've had time to fucking think which is a nice change from the mindless feeling I got while school was in.
I guess lately I've been thinking about a few things. One is this realization that everywhere I go people are living their lives. Lives that aren't mine. Sometimes it's interesting to just think about how the people around you think and live. I guess kind of off this is this feeling that people don't understand me and that I'll have the awesome opertunity to write it down and sound all teenage angsty. But honestly, I'm surprised pretty often with what people think and what they tell me and how foriegn there thoughts can feel. And I guess this also reminded me of that appreciation I have of Margaret for how she always seems to understand everything. I've noticed people's way of living a lot more lately. I really want to figure out how everyone thinks. I'm a little to fucking baked right now to write any more. I'm already rambling too much. (see there?) But yeah, things are well and I'm enjoying the break. Hope you all are too. Peace.
I guess lately I've been thinking about a few things. One is this realization that everywhere I go people are living their lives. Lives that aren't mine. Sometimes it's interesting to just think about how the people around you think and live. I guess kind of off this is this feeling that people don't understand me and that I'll have the awesome opertunity to write it down and sound all teenage angsty. But honestly, I'm surprised pretty often with what people think and what they tell me and how foriegn there thoughts can feel. And I guess this also reminded me of that appreciation I have of Margaret for how she always seems to understand everything. I've noticed people's way of living a lot more lately. I really want to figure out how everyone thinks. I'm a little to fucking baked right now to write any more. I'm already rambling too much. (see there?) But yeah, things are well and I'm enjoying the break. Hope you all are too. Peace.