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ok so life is pretty good for me i really have no complaints. sometimes i just get a bit lonely and i know that that feeling won't last for very long b/c once college starts up again i know that i will b surrounded by people and i will definatly want my freedom. but it does kind of get lonely all summer pretty much all by yourself......i mean u know that its bad when i almost considered calling adam(don't worry i said almost, i didn't actually do it)i mean after i thought about it for about a second and then i realized that i am basically adam's back up plan. the only time he calls me is when he is bored and his g/f is not around....c that is the thing w/ adam i was always second best. even though i did come first when we were going out i, alone, was never good enough. after we would hang out he would always have to b with his friends after. and that is y i am glad that i finally did realize this and i really just ignore the phone when he calls me. i don't need to always b the second best. ok so n e ways well jf is in town and he told me to call him if i was around and tonite is his last nite. i am so tempted to call but i'm sure nothing will work out but today i was over by koessler and i'm pretty sure hes helping out the little kids at camp so i really wanted to just drive by but then i was like no that would be stalkerish so i decided that was a no go but it would b good to c him i never got a chance to say good-bye to him and who knows if i'll ever get to c him again. and so then today i was doin some work in the office and i came back to and sue had told me that anthony had called she said that he told her to tell me hi and for me to call him sometime. that def caught me off guard, of course 1st thing i think is y can't he call me, but then i thought even the fact that he told sue to have me call him well i mean i was just kinda like wow, he could have told me that online, but that fact that he told our (well my )kinda boss i dunno i was just like wow maybe he wants to hang out still. and i am def gonna call him. i'm not sure when yet, my 1st thought was to call him right away tonite but then i was like no i don't want to seem desperate so maybe after the 4th and who knows maybe we'll even hang out sometime soon, i would def like that! i dunno i'm not gonna worry about it. i'll just let everything play out. i think i am going to my bro for the 4th hopefully i'm excited about that, b/c i haven't gone to a party all summer. so hopefully everything will all work out and i will finally do something exciting this weekend.
~laura
~laura