Fuck Everyone, I Just Want to Die
"Tear my heart open, sew myself shut. My weakness is that I care too much."
Why does it hurt this bad? What did I do to deserve this kind of pain of lost andlonelyness. It kills...it literally hurts. I NEVER EVER get this hung up over a guy, but this is Leo. He's my best friend, therapist, and lover. I need him. I really can't live without him much long. While this may sounds a tad over-dramatic and emo, but I can't stress how real this is. I love him and wish today was 11 days later.
I wonder if something stupid, like a new hair color or new nail polish will make me feel better, but it won't. I'm having trouble getting out of my room right now to eat (and not just because my mother is here), but I just don't think I can do anythis. Typing is such a task, I just want to crawl into bed and never leave until Leo has come home. I'm so broken.
Why does it hurt this bad? What did I do to deserve this kind of pain of lost andlonelyness. It kills...it literally hurts. I NEVER EVER get this hung up over a guy, but this is Leo. He's my best friend, therapist, and lover. I need him. I really can't live without him much long. While this may sounds a tad over-dramatic and emo, but I can't stress how real this is. I love him and wish today was 11 days later.
I wonder if something stupid, like a new hair color or new nail polish will make me feel better, but it won't. I'm having trouble getting out of my room right now to eat (and not just because my mother is here), but I just don't think I can do anythis. Typing is such a task, I just want to crawl into bed and never leave until Leo has come home. I'm so broken.