im an idiot!!!!
dude i am the stupidest person in the whole world!!! i let this boy lead me on---well i thought he was!! but the sad thing is ----i liked him----but he is like a brother to me but i cant stand seein him with anyone else----unless it is me----which is selfish but i cant help it! ok and i kissed him 8 times!! and he wouldnt just kiss anyone----and he said that he would go out with me in a sec. if his bf wasnt my bro-----doesnt that sux 4 me!!! and now he likes this other chick----that i thought he was usen me to get to he----or get back at her---------but he said if he knew i realy liked him he wouldnt be just kissn me and he said he was sorry but in the same way he would bc he wouldnt just kiss a random person. and now he is sayin he cant ask this chick out bc he doesnt want to make me cry or hurt me, but he cant ask me out bc he is like apart of my family and he doesnt want to hurt this chick-----so in a way he says we r equil, right? he confuses me alot but i have had feelins 4 him 4evr and i kno him like realy well too so.....i dont kno. i guess i should just wait 4 him----or like my friend says--------"if it is meant to be it will happen and if it isnt meant to be there is sum1 better out there 4 u"...........so i just hope i get him.......gosh dangit, i realy do......besides the fact that this chick he likes is my friend too......but ya i just like him soooooo much, but ttyl.