Truth's Out
This is not my livejournal anymore. To whoever still reads it (does anybody?) if they want to follow what my REAL life is like they'll add LadyAmalthea_88. I know, Elizabeth, that a long time ago on your advice I shut down a similar account (LadyAmalthea88). But this will be my last post as specialcheezit. I might check now and then to see how friends are doing.
On LadyAmalthea_88 you'll see I'm part of E.D. communities and a community called pro_si. The name is deceiving- it's really very anti-SI; it just is a support group. I only post of pro-si and am_i_thin and my own personal journal. More than that I post to a forum called Mirror Mirror which is a wonderful place that is supportive more than triggering and I've gotten real support there when I've needed it the most.
I starve, I binge, I purge, I cut (deeply), I converse with other people who do these things, I get suicidal. I am bipolar and take seven medications I'm often tempted to abuse. I live alone though so if something rather fatal happened there would be no one there to find me. Very permanent. So I shy away.
Basically, I'm not okay. If you want to see how I'm really doing and not just my bubbly facebook- not exactly a facade, but not all true- you'll add the new account.
I do still love all of you though you post so little anymore. Will this pop up in your email? I forget how it works.
Anyway I'm just tired of hiding things. So here I am.
On LadyAmalthea_88 you'll see I'm part of E.D. communities and a community called pro_si. The name is deceiving- it's really very anti-SI; it just is a support group. I only post of pro-si and am_i_thin and my own personal journal. More than that I post to a forum called Mirror Mirror which is a wonderful place that is supportive more than triggering and I've gotten real support there when I've needed it the most.
I starve, I binge, I purge, I cut (deeply), I converse with other people who do these things, I get suicidal. I am bipolar and take seven medications I'm often tempted to abuse. I live alone though so if something rather fatal happened there would be no one there to find me. Very permanent. So I shy away.
Basically, I'm not okay. If you want to see how I'm really doing and not just my bubbly facebook- not exactly a facade, but not all true- you'll add the new account.
I do still love all of you though you post so little anymore. Will this pop up in your email? I forget how it works.
Anyway I'm just tired of hiding things. So here I am.