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I am a 19 year old, junior in college, and terrified of being growing up and being alone. I feel like I should be farrr past this stage by now. I feel like I'm lacking something, that human interaction that makes you feel complete. I'm not a loner by any means, and I've made a ton of friends up here, but something still feels like it's missing.
I don't like feeling like I don't know what to do with myself. Or dreading going home because I know I've already finished all the work I need to do for school and that I'll need to find some other excuse to keep me occupied. I overdose on all my comforts just to get through each day, and it feels far from natural.
I graduate next year, I'm supposed to move on with my life, move to a new city, find a career. I just don't know if I'm ready, hell I don't think I'm even ready to be where I'm at right now. I just need someone to shake me and tell me I'm going in the right direction, I'm making the right choice, I'm doing the right thing.
It's been two weeks since I've lost someone very close to me, and I'm just now allowing myself to accept that I am incredibly lonely. I wish life was easier, I wish the right choice was more obvious, and I wish I were stronger.
I don't like feeling like I don't know what to do with myself. Or dreading going home because I know I've already finished all the work I need to do for school and that I'll need to find some other excuse to keep me occupied. I overdose on all my comforts just to get through each day, and it feels far from natural.
I graduate next year, I'm supposed to move on with my life, move to a new city, find a career. I just don't know if I'm ready, hell I don't think I'm even ready to be where I'm at right now. I just need someone to shake me and tell me I'm going in the right direction, I'm making the right choice, I'm doing the right thing.
It's been two weeks since I've lost someone very close to me, and I'm just now allowing myself to accept that I am incredibly lonely. I wish life was easier, I wish the right choice was more obvious, and I wish I were stronger.