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I'm so tired of being at home. It appears as though I am grounded this weekend, because I haven't been respecting my mom's punishment for me by taking calls, and secretly making phone calls. ARGH!GH! It is so frustrating. So, with this going on, everything that I normally can tolerate has become increasingly angering. It's getting to the point where I want to yell and scream and hit things.
The only thing that's keeping me grounded is the thought of me leaving in August to go to American, and then staying there, away from all of this bullshit, forever. True, I don't want to leave daniel, but with what we've decided on, I'm positive he'll be happy (even though I won't be). All I want to do right now is be independent, relying on no one for aide.
I miss being with him, and talking to him. If my rudeness was caused by the high levels of stress, like i said it was, then how is taking away my contact with the person I love, the person who helps me relax and remember what's important in life, going to help at all.
I HATE THIS.
The only thing that's keeping me grounded is the thought of me leaving in August to go to American, and then staying there, away from all of this bullshit, forever. True, I don't want to leave daniel, but with what we've decided on, I'm positive he'll be happy (even though I won't be). All I want to do right now is be independent, relying on no one for aide.
I miss being with him, and talking to him. If my rudeness was caused by the high levels of stress, like i said it was, then how is taking away my contact with the person I love, the person who helps me relax and remember what's important in life, going to help at all.
I HATE THIS.