today

[specail_k]

today was good, yet crappy, all at once. i woke up later than i wanted, and i was definately cranky. then we seriously lacked food so i settled for toast and jelly. then i went and worked out really hard and got some reading done at the same time. i wonder if people think i'm smart coming into a gym and read the odyssey? anyways. then i came home, showered, met my fam for dinner then they forced me to go get ice cream for all of them. my dad gave me that look of "do it or i'll be dissapointed in you". i was scared. so i went and got ice cream and was cranky during that too... then i came home and ate my ice cream (except it was sorbet... so i'm not going to die from milkness) and felt much better. then i attempted to snuggle in my bed while i read the rest of the odyssey, but i fell asleep only to hear my phone "cucu" at me saying i had a text message. it freaked me out. speaking of being freaked out... i had a dream last night that i was pregnant. and in my dream someone asked me who it was that got me pregnant, but i didn't know. i tried to remember but i was like "i don't know! i thought i was still a virgin!" then (still dreaming...) i thought to myself, "maybe i'm the modern day mary?! maybe this is how Jesus is coming back!?!?!" then i started to go into labor. but i stopped. and someone said to get up and run around, that it would help me go back into labor......... then i woke up. maybe that was why i woke up all cranky.

oh and my "friend" didn't invite me to his 18th birthday party... it's a long story. but whatever... it hurts to know that the so called friend he was to me (said he'd be there for me, be my best friend, could tell him anything...... said i could TRUST him...) is gone... for good. sometimes it's hard to let go.