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so today went by fast... it was a good day, but it went by fast. it was productive (i think), and very Christ filled, so that made me happy. yet when i went home from chillin at Ben and Jerry's i couldn't help but feel weird... it was a strange feeling and i still don't know how to explain it. it was like i messed up... i felt sorta guilty. or just like i forgot something... either way it wasn't a happy feeling. maybe satan was/is trying to attack me. i've been so happy lately. a lot of good things are happening (besides my mommies ankle appendage)... i'm actually understanding spanish, history is fun, bible college is starting and i'm meeting super awesome people, i'm getting to be a part of something i've always wanted to, relationships are being mended, friends are growing in Christ, my want for Christ is growing and that fire in my heart is growing... i don't have much of any thing to be sad about right now. God has blessed me so much... i got to thinking last night on the way home just how God has been SO faithful to me. it's amazing how faithful He is to you when you simply obey him. crazy to think that all i had to do was NOT go to brazil last year, and God has brought me to where i am and who i am today... a fake :) college student who is striving to know God more and is content with her life. sure there are WORLDLY things i get a lil frusterated with. like my hair or my body size or what outfit looks good or what makes me "cool"... but that's just dumb and i kick my own butt when i get that way. oh and when am i not frusterated with boys? hahaha... no actually i think it's more of just trying to understand why God has put in me where i am relationally. not even with just boys, but with everyone. and slowly i think i have just learned to accept it, and that God will bring people into my life, and He will take them away. some friends are only meant for a season (there's a verse about that... don't remember where). as i've talked to people about this relationship stuff (something i probably would have never done before... God is teaching me to trust again... it's so amazing) i'm seeing different sides of my issue. maybe they are right, or maybe not. either way, it helps me to understand why these things may be happening and just accept them.
God is so good to me... i know i never have to worry. He will always take care of me. if He will watch after little birds, then surely He will watch after me and keep me safe in whatever stage of life i'm in. (Matthew 6:26-27. that will forever be one of my life verses)