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This is the end... Conclusion. You lost me now... I had a perfect thing and I put it through hell because I believed somewhere inside of us, we were meant to be together... Forever if there is such a thing is not for us. And it never will be. Fuck you, for every empty word you said to me. Something you didn't know is that I was battling with the possibility of Emma being pregnant. I didn't get to sit down and talk to her about it till Friday night. This week has been us trying to figure out if she was... She finally started her period today. She is an amazing girl and you'll never be half the person she is. You couldn't if you tried. Your too material and immature. So whatever the fuck. I made my peace tonight, I proved my feelings, almost killed myself doing it as well... Panic attacks, with alcohol and driving, not a good mix... DUI city. But you chose a party with a guy you will most likely fuck, over concerning yourself with how I was... In that moment... You negated every word you've said to me. I started hanging out with Emma, after I saw Kyle. I figured it was done and that was what you wanted... What else was I suppose to see... Every girl I have ever been with has said the shit you said to me... Not the other way around. But whatever Im not arguing, I'm not fighting... I want my martial arts pants back, and my moms suit case... I have a jacket of yours and some shorts... We're finished... Fuck it all. Fuck your star, fuck my star on you, fuck monkey... And most of all fuck soul mates... I'm finished... IN the end... Emma never did half the shit you did. All she ever wanted was to be with me, because she pushed me away and LIFE without me was unbearable. If I believed in it, SHE, acts more like a soul mate then you ever have... So fuck you and every thing you tried to be. Im sorry I let Matt introduce us, and you fell "In love" with me. I hate you for this... And I hate this situation for the people hurt in the middle of it. And most of all I hate myself for allowing it to happen... Go be with Kyle, Robert, or whatever other guy you wanna climb into the life of so you can fuck everything up. Im done.