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My head really hurts. I've had a migrane since I woke up just after 1 today and it has not been fun.
I've been thinking the past few days about things and it hasn't been fun. I'm not sure I like what college is doing to me. I haven't been to church at western in a month and a half because things keep coming up, like people staying in my room and such. I use that as an excuse or something, when I could just leave people there or boot them out or whatever, but I really miss going to church. I finally get to go again tomorrow, which is good.
After those thoughts, other things ensued.
I realized that although I love the people here, I really wish things could be toned down a lot in the dirtiness/vulgar language scene. I kept hinting and downright started talking about it bothering me today, but only Pete seemed to have the common courtesy to listen, and he heard it too. It's just really hard now adays trying to be the person I want to be with all these influences that aren't doing me much good. It makes me really miss home. I have very few Christian friends up here and it gets rather hard. I don't know how much more of hearing people talking about their drinking experiences and cussing their heads off I can take. I miss my family so much.
I feel like I'm really alone now adays. Well, not quite alone. Pete's still there and he is the man.
*sigh*
it doesn't help that for some reason in the past few days I've relived my worst memories in my head.
3.5 more days.
I've been thinking the past few days about things and it hasn't been fun. I'm not sure I like what college is doing to me. I haven't been to church at western in a month and a half because things keep coming up, like people staying in my room and such. I use that as an excuse or something, when I could just leave people there or boot them out or whatever, but I really miss going to church. I finally get to go again tomorrow, which is good.
After those thoughts, other things ensued.
I realized that although I love the people here, I really wish things could be toned down a lot in the dirtiness/vulgar language scene. I kept hinting and downright started talking about it bothering me today, but only Pete seemed to have the common courtesy to listen, and he heard it too. It's just really hard now adays trying to be the person I want to be with all these influences that aren't doing me much good. It makes me really miss home. I have very few Christian friends up here and it gets rather hard. I don't know how much more of hearing people talking about their drinking experiences and cussing their heads off I can take. I miss my family so much.
I feel like I'm really alone now adays. Well, not quite alone. Pete's still there and he is the man.
*sigh*
it doesn't help that for some reason in the past few days I've relived my worst memories in my head.
3.5 more days.