why do you still affect me this way?

[speaksuneasy_]

my chemicals don't quell that clench when i am reminded of what i lost in you.

Webster’s Love
I guess
I guess
An eternity is just too much to ask and I know we’re young but so did you
Still you spoke those words
And lay
With me
As we learned what our bodies were for.
Words of the future and forever flowed from your lips
Unto mine
You know
You know
I can’t make a lover without love
I can’t make love without a lover

I could
I could
Be just what you wanted
Agoraphobic inside myself
I always need you
When you’re nowhere to be found
I’d love for you to love me
At arm’s length
A hug is just another
Way to squeeze
A smile is just another
Way to bare teeth
A kiss is just another
Way to bite

I’d love for you to love me
At arm’s length
Lovers’ loves
Lover’s love
Being a lover isn’t loving
That hardly a whisper voice
In your ear
That hand on your body
Or that heart in your chest
Love is indefinable
Love is fleeting
Love is everywhere
Love says
Come and find me

Talk to me Silence, talk to me