lights go out and i cant be saved

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ok so my dad got this really cool new internet thing where i can be online in the car on his lap top ..his company got it for him i think its pretty cool. so i'm on my way to my gandparents house for thanksgiving. yeah really fun right. i guess my grandfather litterally just got out of the hospital and where all gonna be at his house for thanksgiving no good it is gonna put so kmuch stress on him but i mean my dad thinks everything will be ok might i mention that my parents and i were the only people that wnet to vist him ...oh and rex but we were up there everynite \. i'm sure lindsey would have visited if she wanst in Australlia. but i mean my aunts and uncles can get off the asses for at least one nite to see him right. and its not the fact that they couldnt get off work becuz he was there for 2 weeks and debbie and bobby decided to go see OU play insted of seeing Debbies Father in the hospital i mean if he died they mite feel really bad right. i hope they would.

ANYWAYS
i really love the country i wish i lived in it like newcastle even though thats a piece of shit town maybe somewhere better like ...stillwater what a great place. i jsut wish i grew up like my parents in the country really close with there family with horses and cows and chickens i really like that atmosphere but then again i love the city like i wanna move to NYC becuz i could go places there and i really wanna go to boarding school there and try to get my acting carrer going i really found something i'm good at and i love doing and thats acting i really love it and mr. payne says i have the talent so i really wanna go somewhere with it really bad! i love it so much