Seriously. I am a total bitch. The kind that you want to burn and die already.
I hate her so so so so so so much.
And sometimes she does things that make me think I don't hate her so much.
And then I hate her some more for how little I get that sort of treatment.
She and I are really at a dead-end. She doesn't want to try, but when she does, it's not enough for me.
She and I won't last through college. I told her that I hadn't talked to Melanie in a while, and all she could say was that she really didn't miss her, that Melanie was getting whiny and more obnoxious that usual.
In a year, that could be me she's talking about. Maybe the way she brushes off an old friend like that scares the shit out of me. Seriously. It's so easy for her to dislike people, and it's so hard for them to redeem themselves in her eyes.
Maybe I just need to get over it. If she wants to ignore me and spend all her time with Ashley and Daniel and that girl she doesn't even like, so be it. I'll be with Anne or the sisterhood.
Speaking of which. Katie Rath. I miss her so much. I can stand to be away from her, but I can't stand to not be around her at all. I want to call her. But I always say this at 12:30 at night. I miss her so so so so so so much. Katie won't let me go. Even if we don't talk, there's still that understood love. If I decide I want to hang out tomorrow, it won't be weird. I've noticed that the whole sisterhood is good at doing that.
To sort of even out my bitterness, I really do love love love love love Anne, Katie, Amy, and Cayla. I love them so much. I will probably lose Kelli, but I'll have them for a while longer.
And sometimes she does things that make me think I don't hate her so much.
And then I hate her some more for how little I get that sort of treatment.
She and I are really at a dead-end. She doesn't want to try, but when she does, it's not enough for me.
She and I won't last through college. I told her that I hadn't talked to Melanie in a while, and all she could say was that she really didn't miss her, that Melanie was getting whiny and more obnoxious that usual.
In a year, that could be me she's talking about. Maybe the way she brushes off an old friend like that scares the shit out of me. Seriously. It's so easy for her to dislike people, and it's so hard for them to redeem themselves in her eyes.
Maybe I just need to get over it. If she wants to ignore me and spend all her time with Ashley and Daniel and that girl she doesn't even like, so be it. I'll be with Anne or the sisterhood.
Speaking of which. Katie Rath. I miss her so much. I can stand to be away from her, but I can't stand to not be around her at all. I want to call her. But I always say this at 12:30 at night. I miss her so so so so so so much. Katie won't let me go. Even if we don't talk, there's still that understood love. If I decide I want to hang out tomorrow, it won't be weird. I've noticed that the whole sisterhood is good at doing that.
To sort of even out my bitterness, I really do love love love love love Anne, Katie, Amy, and Cayla. I love them so much. I will probably lose Kelli, but I'll have them for a while longer.