Deep Thoughts
So much going on with me these last few days it has been a real rollercoaster. I am really on pins and needles over here and I feel like I have been getting really upset quickly. My emotions are about as stable as a glue sniffing drifter and I really hate myself because of it. I hate so many people right now. Its like I start off the day in a good mood but the more contact I have with these folks it just ruins my day. I have also been almost cursed by banging some chick in the past. It seriously haunts me and I honestly wish it never happened. Its like I have some kind of emotional attachment to this person when I would give anything to completely forget about the whole thing and really treat the person like garbage but I cant. Man that really sucks. I want so bad to let it all go and it always comes around when I am trying to erase it completely. I guess that is something that I will hopefully be able to come to grips with in the not to distant future. There is so much other shit that is becoming more important to me and I am through with all the petty bullshit that has been keeping me from being in the place where I want to be. I realized today that it is less than a month from my birthday. I am pretty fired up about it. I want to go eat at a Miyabi or another one of those cook in front of you Japanese restaurants and drink a shitload of Sake, and bang on the table, and wear that sweet headband that Tomo gave me. You know what life isnt so bad after all. Peace brothers and sisters.