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I'm so empty, yet so full.
I lost all my friends and my life.
Started a new one.
I didn't want to leave anyone behind. But now it seems like they didn't even care.
Or more like they're happy about it.
I guess it's impossible to try and do something to make yourself happy, and have anyone approve of it.
Lose-lose situation.
I'm not sure who I am now. I'm still Jess, but I have to change alot.. and I'm not happy about it. I want my old life back. Things get more and more complicated everyday. I miss everything I had. But even if I turned around right now and tried, it would never be the same. But it wouldn't have been even if I didn't do all this in the first place.
I'm just fucked up. And I'm scared to seek out help from my friends because I don't even know who would even want to talk to me anymore.
I lost all my friends and my life.
Started a new one.
I didn't want to leave anyone behind. But now it seems like they didn't even care.
Or more like they're happy about it.
I guess it's impossible to try and do something to make yourself happy, and have anyone approve of it.
Lose-lose situation.
I'm not sure who I am now. I'm still Jess, but I have to change alot.. and I'm not happy about it. I want my old life back. Things get more and more complicated everyday. I miss everything I had. But even if I turned around right now and tried, it would never be the same. But it wouldn't have been even if I didn't do all this in the first place.
I'm just fucked up. And I'm scared to seek out help from my friends because I don't even know who would even want to talk to me anymore.