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what the fuck am i doing?? its 515 in the morning right now, and im still up. tonight was a good night, a good night to end a shitty day. we played edward 40 hands, and for those who are unfamiliar, its just as it sounds.... you duck tape a 40 to each hand, and you cant do anything but drink until both 40's are done.... needless to say, i got tanked. and after that, we had a box of rockets and a 12 pk of highlife... goddam rediculous if you ask me. so i had my health class today, and in it, i have been trying to hook up with this girl. well, wanting to hook up at least. i cant seem to put forth the effort. its nights like to night when i think about it and wish i would have done something more, but when it comes down to it, when im in class, its so much harder than that. its so hard to just approach her and initiate conversation. so i continue to do nothing, but my time is running out. i have 3 more days left of class until the semester ends, and when the semester ends, my chance with her is over. i dont want to blow this, but it feels like its inevitable. i cant seem to get it right. fuck. i have to figure this out, and do it quickly, cuz if i dont, i will forever regret my actions. this sucks so bad