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So, tonights Halloween and all ive done is reminace in my head about last Halloween, sitting in Henrys basement getting wasted with Drew, DS, and mike Watson. PLaying beer pong and then watching Henry puke his guts out. Then saying goodbye to him as he went off to rehab.
Now the sad truth is me and Henry arent friends anymore, probably wont be again wich suck becasue i love him with all my heart.
Im totally inlove with Steve, but i have such issues with jealousy. I meen i guess i can see where IM comming from seeing as he has expressed his interest in other girls. But i meen whatever i know nothing will ever happen, i trust him alot. He means alot to me. i meen comeon.. im the one that fucked up.
I keep thinking about my childhood NOT teenagehood lol but when i was little and all the fucked up shits that happened to me, that i never told anyone, and NEVER will.
i dont think it has anything to do with how i am now, and i think any therapist i go to will tell me it does with a ton of fancy words involed and technical terms. i meen all they really do is give there opnion on why ur life is the way it is. Nothing is really set in reasoning to why people are the way they are.
WHATEVERRR DUDE.
i have to find a new job.. mines gonna be gone soon :(
gimme a new car.
okay thank you...
Now the sad truth is me and Henry arent friends anymore, probably wont be again wich suck becasue i love him with all my heart.
Im totally inlove with Steve, but i have such issues with jealousy. I meen i guess i can see where IM comming from seeing as he has expressed his interest in other girls. But i meen whatever i know nothing will ever happen, i trust him alot. He means alot to me. i meen comeon.. im the one that fucked up.
I keep thinking about my childhood NOT teenagehood lol but when i was little and all the fucked up shits that happened to me, that i never told anyone, and NEVER will.
i dont think it has anything to do with how i am now, and i think any therapist i go to will tell me it does with a ton of fancy words involed and technical terms. i meen all they really do is give there opnion on why ur life is the way it is. Nothing is really set in reasoning to why people are the way they are.
WHATEVERRR DUDE.
i have to find a new job.. mines gonna be gone soon :(
gimme a new car.
okay thank you...