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yeah my heart is completely broken
and its gonna be like this for awhile
but its momoents lke this where i gain a little sanity.
i talk myself out of liking you anymore
and out of "needing" you so much
fuck that. i dont NEED you
i just want you.
i need people like Jesse, Jordan, Racheal, and Henry in my life who make me feel like a person
theres no way i could have done any of this without them
so fuck you
SERIOUSLY fuck you
fuck you for making me feel like shit
fuck you for always making urself the good guy
fuck you for being insane.
fuck you for pretending like none of this hurts.
fuck me for hurting.
im always having to be the poor pathetic one that can't get over a guy that doesnt even love her.
IS IT my fault you tell me u love me and then tell ur friends that im worthless to you?
dont think so
you're the most immature person ive met.
grow some fuckin balls.
stop being such a liar
and you know
YOU'RE A FUCKING LIAR.
tryin to call me out on all my shit?
PLEASE. atleast i own up to it.
you wouldnt admit something if it hit u in the fucking face.
i want nothing to do with you
i hope you find someone who will deal with ur shit
cause even if u begged me too
no way in hell i'd go back to you or even think about it.
IM not saying that i dont stilllove you, and that it doesnt feel like my heart is cracked into a million little pieces
what im saying is.
the first time, for real, since this shits been fucked.
i WANT to stop loving you. and I WANT to put my heart back together.
im inlove with someone right now that makes me feel like i am everything
something u could never give to me.
im so sick of this.
im done
no more
its over,
you dont exist anymore.
ill never forgive you.
you killed me.
ive been lieing to myself forever.
this is what i really feel.
im not sorry for myself anymore.