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So I have the cold, a bad head cold. Then I was thinking about taking medicine before bed tonight, maybe Nyquil, but that made be begin to think that I got sick last year around this same time, then that made me think about what I was doing last year at this exact time. I was dating this girl who would forever change my life, and change the way I saw things forever.
It's great to have good friends, I live for that. The unity, the brotherhood, etc... But sometimes, its even better to have a chic. I met this girl last year and started dating her, and I don't know what happened, but suddenly, I was this guy who had ridiculous amounts of energy, I loved life, and things were going good for once in my life. It could have been the spring, but I think going out with this chic had a lot to do with it.
It was almost as if I had gotten a glimpse of one of my purposes in life. I was so naturally high, nothing negative phased me, so it seemed. It was an extremely amazing experience for me, falling in love I guess. I was never whipped, we kept our distance when we needed to, unlike some people I know.
When we were going out:
Music sounded better! The sun was more beautiful! The days just seemed to be amazing! Not to mention late at night!
But breaking up made me never want to "fall in love" ever again.
So I guess why I'm writing this may be because
I'm wired on concerta, trying to study and it's not working, but really, I guess it's because I want what I had last year, and I expect similar things to happen, and they're not. I expect that great spring that I had, I expect to get so high while not even being on anything. I expect nothing to get old, nothing to get tiring, and everything to be the fucking shit!
But I can't.
Because the point is, when certain things like that happen, that are so amazing, you want it to happen again!
But the truth, the point, the bottom line definitely is:
We Are In Charge of Our Own Destiny
And everything you and I do this spring and last few weeks of school and forever really, will determine how amazing and great we can really make our lives.
It's up to you...
It's great to have good friends, I live for that. The unity, the brotherhood, etc... But sometimes, its even better to have a chic. I met this girl last year and started dating her, and I don't know what happened, but suddenly, I was this guy who had ridiculous amounts of energy, I loved life, and things were going good for once in my life. It could have been the spring, but I think going out with this chic had a lot to do with it.
It was almost as if I had gotten a glimpse of one of my purposes in life. I was so naturally high, nothing negative phased me, so it seemed. It was an extremely amazing experience for me, falling in love I guess. I was never whipped, we kept our distance when we needed to, unlike some people I know.
When we were going out:
Music sounded better! The sun was more beautiful! The days just seemed to be amazing! Not to mention late at night!
But breaking up made me never want to "fall in love" ever again.
So I guess why I'm writing this may be because
I'm wired on concerta, trying to study and it's not working, but really, I guess it's because I want what I had last year, and I expect similar things to happen, and they're not. I expect that great spring that I had, I expect to get so high while not even being on anything. I expect nothing to get old, nothing to get tiring, and everything to be the fucking shit!
But I can't.
Because the point is, when certain things like that happen, that are so amazing, you want it to happen again!
But the truth, the point, the bottom line definitely is:
We Are In Charge of Our Own Destiny
And everything you and I do this spring and last few weeks of school and forever really, will determine how amazing and great we can really make our lives.
It's up to you...