I Didn't Think Things Could Get Worse
Guess I didn't know how well I had it. Had 2 people in my life yesterday basically disown and un-friend me. Both of them ex girlfriends, so perhaps I should have seen that coming, however I'm oblivious to many things.
My most recent ex, Jeanie, which I took to be my friend after the breakup didn't actually tell me she was cutting me out of her life, so much as just doing so. First she blocked me on Facebook. I had been talking to her online not 5 mins before about just her day, and her sending out some music, and nothing was said, nothing was asked. She didn't say anything about wanting space, or to be left alone. In fact I remember asking her if she would like for me to just leave her alone, and she said no.. Not a fucking thing! So I let it go for a day. This morning I txted her to see what the deal is. No reply. So about 2 hours later I call and leave a message in hopes of hearing something. No call back. I come home tonight and find her wow characters deleted from the server. Seriously WTF did I do to deserve this kind of treatment? It doesn't make any sense. and to do it without saying a damn word. If I had to blame something it would probably be me, for still maintaining a fair amount of contact with her after the breakup. She did say she still wanted to be my friend when she broke up with me. She was surprised that I wasn't mad at her and didn't hate her for breaking my heart... So I don't know what changed, but chances are I caused it.
My ex previous to Jeanie, Katie, which also turned out to be a good friend after the breakup. Well to make a long story short that most already know. I was stupid and oblivious about something concerning money nature of a past issue and now it has come to a head enough to break our friendship. Katie at least didn't cut me out of her life, for that I am thankful. But she no longer wants to be my friend. I'm not welcome in her house. She said she just wasn't getting anything out of our friendship. Admittedly I was complaining to Katie about Jeanie breaking up with me, and me being oblivious, never took into account her feelings on the matter that I was complaining to someone I once was in a relationship with about a girl that just broke up with me.
Could all of this been avoided. Probably, most likely. I'm pretty sure I aggravated the situation with Jeanie by not just leaving her alone, and she might have been willing to still game with me until then.. but I doubt it, something tells me this was something she was pondering for a while... Something in the way I was maintaining contact or what not drove her to cut me out of her life completely... It hurts. It feels like I've been broken up with all over again. And truly now, there is nothing I can do. I just don't know.
So I'm back to square one all over again with my life it seems. And I hope to still have some friends when this is all said, over and done with....because I'm not in a good place right now... And my friends are going to be the ones that have to deal with my sorry ass in the coming months as I try to pull my life back together, yet again.
My most recent ex, Jeanie, which I took to be my friend after the breakup didn't actually tell me she was cutting me out of her life, so much as just doing so. First she blocked me on Facebook. I had been talking to her online not 5 mins before about just her day, and her sending out some music, and nothing was said, nothing was asked. She didn't say anything about wanting space, or to be left alone. In fact I remember asking her if she would like for me to just leave her alone, and she said no.. Not a fucking thing! So I let it go for a day. This morning I txted her to see what the deal is. No reply. So about 2 hours later I call and leave a message in hopes of hearing something. No call back. I come home tonight and find her wow characters deleted from the server. Seriously WTF did I do to deserve this kind of treatment? It doesn't make any sense. and to do it without saying a damn word. If I had to blame something it would probably be me, for still maintaining a fair amount of contact with her after the breakup. She did say she still wanted to be my friend when she broke up with me. She was surprised that I wasn't mad at her and didn't hate her for breaking my heart... So I don't know what changed, but chances are I caused it.
My ex previous to Jeanie, Katie, which also turned out to be a good friend after the breakup. Well to make a long story short that most already know. I was stupid and oblivious about something concerning money nature of a past issue and now it has come to a head enough to break our friendship. Katie at least didn't cut me out of her life, for that I am thankful. But she no longer wants to be my friend. I'm not welcome in her house. She said she just wasn't getting anything out of our friendship. Admittedly I was complaining to Katie about Jeanie breaking up with me, and me being oblivious, never took into account her feelings on the matter that I was complaining to someone I once was in a relationship with about a girl that just broke up with me.
Could all of this been avoided. Probably, most likely. I'm pretty sure I aggravated the situation with Jeanie by not just leaving her alone, and she might have been willing to still game with me until then.. but I doubt it, something tells me this was something she was pondering for a while... Something in the way I was maintaining contact or what not drove her to cut me out of her life completely... It hurts. It feels like I've been broken up with all over again. And truly now, there is nothing I can do. I just don't know.
So I'm back to square one all over again with my life it seems. And I hope to still have some friends when this is all said, over and done with....because I'm not in a good place right now... And my friends are going to be the ones that have to deal with my sorry ass in the coming months as I try to pull my life back together, yet again.