pointless diatribe
ive made a discovery. I have exactly one true friend on earth. Now, thats not to say i have only amiga uno, but but if i got stuck, and i mean really stuck, not im drunk @ a party come get me, i need a prom date bc i already have the dress stuck, i mean, my grandmother's dying, my mom n my brother r off their meds, my dad took off n my boyfriend tried to kill me (FOR INSTANCE! nobodys dying, everyones here and on their meds and no one has tried 2 kill me....yet)If i was in a serios situation, like i need a kidney or next month's rent, there's only one person in exsistance i could call. There's only one person who knows everything there is to know, from the shane west obsession, to the baking boredom to the crying at night....and thats the tip of my proverbial iceberg. She gets me, psychosis and all, and still loves me. Somebody i can call @ 3am about nothing......or everything. Somebody who can tell by the first syllable of the first word what kind of a day it is. If she wanted to, she could blackmail me till the year after we both died. There's nothing i'm afraid to or feel stupid saying, i know no matter what i can trust her to give it to me straight (and she has, and that hasn't scared me yet)She's been my best friend for years on end, and no matter how circumstances change, that fact won't. college won't change it. boyfroends damn sure won't. we have an unbreakable, inseperable bond, that sometimes, is all i have to keep me going. If nothng else, i kno somebody cares. We fight about everything under the sun, but if we agreed on everything, how boring! Were 2 different people with a shitload in common. we each have our own personality, our own voice (though ppl cant tell one from the other :)) 2 put it simplely
we r best friends.
now....the reason behind my wonderful diatribe? Ive been thinking a lot this week and next year my life WILL change. my friends WILL CHANGE. but Ashton won't. were as close as weve ever been, and thats more then i can say 4 a lot of my past 'ships (relation and friend alike) i still talk 2 the person, but its like were aquintances. ashton n i.....its like we jus got home from camp. maybe ur only supposed to have one 'ship like that in your life. Oprah says to count the number of TRUE friends you have on your fingers. thats easy for me. I still value my other friendships, i love them, i wouldn't want to trade them (for the most part) some of them i even call my best friends. but i don't have that connection that ive got w/ Ashton. I wouldn't want to live w/ them, ashton i practically did live w/ growing up over the summer. I never have anything to worry about w/ ashton i kno she wont play me, or screw me over, i have that assurance w/ almost no one else. Ashton and i make plans, and change em, and change em a 3rd time, 2 fit our schedules. w/ other ppl, that wouldnt fly. They'd get attitudes and pissy. But ashton and i r just more easy going ab it. maybe bc weve been around eachother so long
POINT: Ashton will be around in 50 years, guranteed. godmother to my kids, maid of honor in my wedding, thats been the plan for god knows how long. i can't say that about any other friend i have right now, we may speak in passing, but nowhere near having a relationship like the one we have (or had).