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Apparently I've been cutting out some of the fat in my life--and oh the irony of that phrase! I've just realized that there are actually several "relationships" of sorts that are unnecessarily dragging on. One would even be Mr. Mathews, aren't ya'll so proud? Not that I have really talked to him since he graduated, but I'm tired of being the one to intiate and generally be disappointed anyway. Life has moved on, and I'm going to only make an effort to those who reciprocate for me. No relationship is a one way street, whether romantic or just in friendship. Actions speak louder than words, and if it's not important enough to even try and set aside some time to see on an infrequent trip home, then I'm not going to bother with it anymore.
The same goes for a couple "friendships." If people don't even desire, and make it plainly known, making the effort and time to spend with me then I don't need them in my life. Why the hell should I have to foot the bill to visit someone who doesn't even think Im worth 3-5 cents? The superficiality has finally gotten to me, and I'm done. I should have said something a long time ago, and that is my own mistake. People change and lead different lives and that's fine, but let's just finally call a spade a spade and be direct about it? All I ask is that people be straight-forward rather than just pretending to be friendly when deep down they're tired of carrying on. Don't be immature and just ignore messages and never return phone calls, all the while still "wanting to be my friend." Can I say loads of bull shit? Sending me mixed signals like that doesn't really assist in ridding of me, duh.
But anyway, I really do cherish those true friendships I have, even if we don't get to talk as often as we'd like, etc. And I now feel more liberated, because I've gotten stuff off my chest that I've been wanting to say for years (straight to those specific people--not being passive aggressive, lol). Hooray, and I can't wait to see you girls when I'm home!!!
The same goes for a couple "friendships." If people don't even desire, and make it plainly known, making the effort and time to spend with me then I don't need them in my life. Why the hell should I have to foot the bill to visit someone who doesn't even think Im worth 3-5 cents? The superficiality has finally gotten to me, and I'm done. I should have said something a long time ago, and that is my own mistake. People change and lead different lives and that's fine, but let's just finally call a spade a spade and be direct about it? All I ask is that people be straight-forward rather than just pretending to be friendly when deep down they're tired of carrying on. Don't be immature and just ignore messages and never return phone calls, all the while still "wanting to be my friend." Can I say loads of bull shit? Sending me mixed signals like that doesn't really assist in ridding of me, duh.
But anyway, I really do cherish those true friendships I have, even if we don't get to talk as often as we'd like, etc. And I now feel more liberated, because I've gotten stuff off my chest that I've been wanting to say for years (straight to those specific people--not being passive aggressive, lol). Hooray, and I can't wait to see you girls when I'm home!!!