why me>|?
i wonder when ill wonder home,
if ill be fit to drink alone.
sleep with my memories,
pictures, apolgies.
for every minute yesterday,
regret reminds me anyway.
if i rememeber anything.
ill make mistakes again.
last night on the mass pike,
thought i was losing you,
last night on the mass pike,
i fell in love with you.
i will declare a holiday,
the night that she turned me away.
im drowning in my misery
cause it solves everything...
right now, im having a wonderful time in austin. really dont wanna come home to my real world on sunday, but ill have to. face everything that i dont wanna face. ive been drinking and smoking way too much. i wake up everyday with the worst throat pains. i guess that all ends tomorrow though. ive met alot of great people, and seen alot of great shows. ive seen margot and the nuclear so and sos three times now. and if you didnt know, they are my favorite band right now.. check them out if you can find their shit. saw most serene republic again. and the new amsterdams. saw the subways tonight and they played an amazing show. i can barely remember everything though..i guess thats my fault. i find it better to blame myself for everything. i dont know why. i bought alot of awesome posters over the past few days. have spent wayyyyy too much money. and need to start saving and paying again when i get home. i really dont wanna come back, but it is inevitable. i think im gonna stay sober tomorrow night. 3 days straight of being a drunken mess is enough for me. shits outta control here. i better be able to do this next year because its great. i cant rid my mind of everything and its very frustrating. what am i supposed to do? any suggestions? im pretty desperate as of right now. am i supposed to just have this massive awakening, telling me what to do and where to go? does it just come that easy. im waiting for something, but i really dont know what it is at all. please be kind to me when i come home kentucky....then again...why the fuck am i there? i dont know how i ended up where i am right now. i dont know how i managed to come here for free, i dont know whats going on anymore. im very very gone right now. no bit of sanity left. goodnight.
if ill be fit to drink alone.
sleep with my memories,
pictures, apolgies.
for every minute yesterday,
regret reminds me anyway.
if i rememeber anything.
ill make mistakes again.
last night on the mass pike,
thought i was losing you,
last night on the mass pike,
i fell in love with you.
i will declare a holiday,
the night that she turned me away.
im drowning in my misery
cause it solves everything...
right now, im having a wonderful time in austin. really dont wanna come home to my real world on sunday, but ill have to. face everything that i dont wanna face. ive been drinking and smoking way too much. i wake up everyday with the worst throat pains. i guess that all ends tomorrow though. ive met alot of great people, and seen alot of great shows. ive seen margot and the nuclear so and sos three times now. and if you didnt know, they are my favorite band right now.. check them out if you can find their shit. saw most serene republic again. and the new amsterdams. saw the subways tonight and they played an amazing show. i can barely remember everything though..i guess thats my fault. i find it better to blame myself for everything. i dont know why. i bought alot of awesome posters over the past few days. have spent wayyyyy too much money. and need to start saving and paying again when i get home. i really dont wanna come back, but it is inevitable. i think im gonna stay sober tomorrow night. 3 days straight of being a drunken mess is enough for me. shits outta control here. i better be able to do this next year because its great. i cant rid my mind of everything and its very frustrating. what am i supposed to do? any suggestions? im pretty desperate as of right now. am i supposed to just have this massive awakening, telling me what to do and where to go? does it just come that easy. im waiting for something, but i really dont know what it is at all. please be kind to me when i come home kentucky....then again...why the fuck am i there? i dont know how i ended up where i am right now. i dont know how i managed to come here for free, i dont know whats going on anymore. im very very gone right now. no bit of sanity left. goodnight.