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Why is it that a person can have all they could possiblely want and still want more? Are people just always going to be unhappy with life? Its not enough to have more than most people in the world, but we're all still not happy with it. Everyone is just lonely. Even if they say they aren't. Its quite impossible to happy with every single detail in one's life. Am I correct in saying this or am I wrong? I don't think I am wrong. I believe that I have a great life at the moment but of course there is something missing. I don't want to be one of those girls who can't possiblely get through without a guy in their life, but having one seems to make things easier. Seeing the world through rose colored glasses. Or maybe I'm just lonely. Who knows. I sure don't.
So I was thinking of dying my hair brown. I want a change. I love being blonde, but it gets boring. And it's quite annoying to get up. But it's my junior year in high school, I want this to be better than the last two years because frankly they were a waste of my time. But I think I would like to try being a brunette. I still don't know yet though. feed back please.
I'm just in a bad mood, its a mix of loneliness, sickness, and tiredness. Which I hate. I dislike being in a bad mood. Maybe it's end of summer crash. I only have two more days. What happened to my summer? It was such a waste. I basically regret most things I did this summer. Bascially my summer sucked. Actually, most things suck. I have been constantly getting into fights with my mother. I don't want to go back to that. I hate fighting, but everything just turns into an arguement. We just don't mesh well together. Even she thinks that, she thinks that she is not the right person to be my mother. In a way that hurts but I also agree with it. I need a mother who is more trusting of my actions, who doesn't think I'm such a "risk taker". Which i am not. I am not a risk taker. I would never do anything if I was going to get caught. That is definately not a risk taker. The whole issue just angers me.
I have to be getting to bed. I haven't stayed up this late in a while, which is actually quite pathetic since it is only 10:38. I am such a loser.
So I was thinking of dying my hair brown. I want a change. I love being blonde, but it gets boring. And it's quite annoying to get up. But it's my junior year in high school, I want this to be better than the last two years because frankly they were a waste of my time. But I think I would like to try being a brunette. I still don't know yet though. feed back please.
I'm just in a bad mood, its a mix of loneliness, sickness, and tiredness. Which I hate. I dislike being in a bad mood. Maybe it's end of summer crash. I only have two more days. What happened to my summer? It was such a waste. I basically regret most things I did this summer. Bascially my summer sucked. Actually, most things suck. I have been constantly getting into fights with my mother. I don't want to go back to that. I hate fighting, but everything just turns into an arguement. We just don't mesh well together. Even she thinks that, she thinks that she is not the right person to be my mother. In a way that hurts but I also agree with it. I need a mother who is more trusting of my actions, who doesn't think I'm such a "risk taker". Which i am not. I am not a risk taker. I would never do anything if I was going to get caught. That is definately not a risk taker. The whole issue just angers me.
I have to be getting to bed. I haven't stayed up this late in a while, which is actually quite pathetic since it is only 10:38. I am such a loser.