update
So I had my docs appointment today... Rileys heart beat is good, she is only one centimeter too big so I don't have to have a c- section! The lesion on my cervix however has not gone away as planned. And to be perfectly honest Im kinda scared. Im afraid that it will turn into cancer. As of right now there are only minor changes so we are gonna biopsy or anything this way I won't have to give birth before my full term is up. 4 weeks after tho we have to biopsy and thats when we can do even further testing. Chris says not to worry until after the baby is born, but Im worried and I really wish I could just have someone to tell my fears to that would listen and let me cry. Everyone tells me to be strong and hang in there, but I really just wanna cry. Im scared and I have no one to just listen to me be a baby about it. Ive been strong and brave with all the complications this preganancy has thrown at me. Ive quitly suffered thro the firt biopsy, Ive not complained when the cramps got real bad, I don't whine about the back ache and how my feet hurt. But now, now i want to, I wanna just lay in bed and cry but instead Im packing for a move into a house. Cleaning the bath tub even tho it hurts to bend over. Walking the dog which makes my feet hurt more. And being a wife, which is a job in itself.