I'm Sick of Watching Shitty Ass Baseball!!!
Oh my god, he is such an asshole. Don't dish it if you can't take it. I'm not going to talk to him for the rest of the night. I swear to God (even though I shouldn't) I hate his fucking guts. Boy, Deb, you really know who to pick them. Jesus Christ on a Cross, can't I fall for someone normal and have a HEALTHY relationship. He doesn't want to get married, he doesn't want to have kids...not that I'm rushing or anything, hell I just want to keep those options open, but noooo I have to be the passive-aggressive person that I am and just be a fucking door matt for everyone. I mean does that feel good knowing you treat people like shit. I just try to be nice and then get used. Well at least I know that doesn't feel good, but hey I'm too chicken shit to do anything about it. I just really want normalcy. I want a good future. I want a boyfriend who has a fucking job...I just want to crawl in a hole and die so I don't have to deal with this shit anymore. It makes me tired. Maybe I'll go to bed now...Goodnight!