Two and a half years on December twenty-sixth

Dec 22, 2005 21:55

So since my mom and I have been going up to Carousel for christmas shopping, we always pass this store. And everytime we pass this store I get really excited and reallllly happy and it makes me miss Jordy soooo much. But this store, is a bridal store, with all these pretty dresses and brides-maid dresses in the windows. And all I can think about is how pretty I will be in one. Then I start thinking about how yummy Jordy would look. And then I think about how much I really want to tell my mom whats going on. But I just dont have the balls to do so. I can hear the lecture she will give me already. Its just that I know what I want and I know what I'm doing, and I know that shes going to tell me that I'm too young and I don't know what I'm doing and all that, and that he's my first love. But that is the whole point, I've never loved a boy I've been with because... well it wasn't right. Oh but this boy... Jordon Somers, I love him, more than anyone will ever know. And I know what you guys are thinking especially if you know us. Yes, we have broken up before, a lot. And we get in fights... but, to tell you the truth, I think it works like that. Every relationship needs those stupid lil fights, cuz then you just couldnt have the great make up sex. haha, no but really -- I really do think fights are good for a relationship because, if you agree with everything your partner does, that just sounds quite boring and predictable.
Anyways, I just can't wait. I really can't. Maybe it's because he's all I can think about lately. One because he works alllll the time and I see him on an average of 10 minutes a day (granted that's better than nothing), and 2 I'm grounded and I have nothing better to do. Oh, and 3 because he's the love of my life.

ps- for those book readers, I borrowed one of my cousin's books she had to read for a class, and its really interesting. like wierd interesting. she was always talking about it because it was that wierd. It's this society where women and men have pretty much switched their roles. It's entertaining, and has gotten a few giggles out of me. It's called Egalia's Daughters by Gerd Brantenberg. It's says right on the cover its a feminist book, something I never thought I would read. But hey, its good so far.
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