Freestyling - journal
Diary entry
Now I know how it felt for all of those people to be ignored by me after I had my fun with them. It sucks. I'm such an idiot for believing the things a lover said to me. People say all sorts of shit when they're fucking, so what made me think that anything that came out of his mouth was true? It's all payback for the way I lied and screwed over people in the past, I know it. I deserve it. And it's not like I can talk to Tom about this because I don't want him to think that I want someone else. I don't. I just don't like thinking that a friend who pretty much has all the control over when I can see him chooses to just dump me after saying all these really awesome things to me. I hear absolutely nothing after he said all this shit about hooking up with me and Tom and then I find out he's taken up with some flower child. Unbelievable. Whatever. Like I said, it's payback for years of me being an asshole to other people, I know. I just hate that I let that piece of shit hurt my feelings like this. I'm usually a better judge of character.
And now I feel better for venting and it's done.
Now I know how it felt for all of those people to be ignored by me after I had my fun with them. It sucks. I'm such an idiot for believing the things a lover said to me. People say all sorts of shit when they're fucking, so what made me think that anything that came out of his mouth was true? It's all payback for the way I lied and screwed over people in the past, I know it. I deserve it. And it's not like I can talk to Tom about this because I don't want him to think that I want someone else. I don't. I just don't like thinking that a friend who pretty much has all the control over when I can see him chooses to just dump me after saying all these really awesome things to me. I hear absolutely nothing after he said all this shit about hooking up with me and Tom and then I find out he's taken up with some flower child. Unbelievable. Whatever. Like I said, it's payback for years of me being an asshole to other people, I know. I just hate that I let that piece of shit hurt my feelings like this. I'm usually a better judge of character.
And now I feel better for venting and it's done.