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Realized today that I'm not a very repetative person, with a lot of things. For instance, working. So far Kilwin's has been one of the longest jobs I've held and it's only been like 4 almost 5 months. I just get really tired of doing the same exact thing every day of the week. I'm also the same way when it comes to writing songs. It's weird. But oh well. So I'm trying to quit a lot of things at once and its not working out to well. Trying to stop smoking both kinds and its not working out well. I'm also trying to work out more in the mornings when I wake up but I just feel like I lose more energy everytime I wake up. And even when I do work out and exercise and eat well, it seems I never lose a pound. I do have problems with my body that keep me from losing weight but I know how to work around it and that doesn't seem to be working either. Really sucks. I know for a fact that when I do lose weight I'll be feeling much better in the mornings and just feeling better about myself and better physically. But I don't know if it'll ever happen. And lately I've been blaming the way I look on the reason why girls don't like me or ever want to go out with me or even on a date or something but I know that's not the only thing. I dunno, I just wish I could find something out there that can make me happy and feel good about myself because I honestly don't like being down or depressed or anything like that. I just need to find happiness for and inside of myself I guess. So the journey begins....