i think finally...
I think I've finally understood what Nick has been telling me all this time. It's starting to work too. I was ready to just give up like I always said I would be really never did. I tried to hard...did too many things to try and make things right. But it's so not worth it when you figure out that all most people do is screw you over. I used to walk an eggshells all day long not knowing what was going to happen next. But all I really need to worry about is now...not what is gonna come of this and that. I worry too much...and I care too much. I've made the decision with the help and advice from nick to not give a shit. I can't...it always hurt me too much to be so damn nice and keep my hopes up all the time. And frankly I'm an idiot for doing it all the time. Sorry I'm not genius and think of how to solve the worlds problems. I'm just me, and that's all I can be. So I guess I just needed to say fuck you to all the people who have used me and taken advantage of me being generous all the time...and go suck a fuck...