Aug 02, 2006 09:29
Wow this is very strange to be writing here, it seems like everything is changing so fast that people arent stopping anymore to take a look around and see what is actually going on or what they are actually doing to ppl or anything, everyone is so caught up in the drama of things everyone is just getting hurt, dnt get me wrong i get caught up in the shit too as much as i do not want to i do,
This summer has been a interesting one alot of has happened, i kinda wish i went up 2 camp this year, they people up there are fucking awesome but im glad that i stayed home becuase yah this summer has been kinda drama fest there are certain ppl that have reallly been there for me, chrystine, mark, weezle, i thank you guys so much honeslty if you guys werent they i dont know where i would be right now or what kind of mess i would be in. but thank you guys every much.
Friends have split up alot this summer, no one seems as close anymore everyone is going away to college, and you know what i was bummed out last year because all of my friends are going to be gone i probally wont see very much of ppl anymore most of my friends were the graduating class of 06, and i thought that this year was going to be very lonley with out them but now that i think about it, its okay because they are doing their own thing and i need to do mine everythign will work out, there always the phone or a road trip to visit anyone and i will. i have realized alot this summer, who my friends are, what ppl are really like, sucks that it had to all happen at once but even tho i hit rock bottom at one point it was a good thing i did, becuase it did make me stronger, made me more independent, just sucks, but hey all works out for the better right? lets seriously hope,
ive actually been getting kinda depressed tho latley just randomly i will be totally fine then i will just sit there quiet as a mouse not say a word and just sit there looking into nothing thinking about everything.
i miss alot from what i use to do, haning out wtih like huge groups just walking around instead of sitting in a couch yes i love to do that im lazy too but i feel like everyone is TOO lazy now, no one wants to go out anymore just smoke drink or sit, again i love doing that too but lets go out anywhere..does it really matter where we go as long as we are with our friends? isnt that what friendships are all about nothing matters as long as your with ppl that you care about? why dose it matter where we go lets just get out and talk more bond more, you can always learn new things even from old friends..
So yah maybe i will write more later
everyone keep in touch
~Renny