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[spazmasta]

hey guys im back for the day...im leaving again 2mmrrw at like 9....kinda sux well what did i do at camp besides work my ass off...ohh yah i thrwe a rock threw a window and hit a kid in the head! scorre and i got in sum serious shyt for that...others wise i felt like shyt..i know in the other entry that like i said they were like my family FUCK THAt i have no family i have no family anywhere....i fucking hate it up there i feel like shyt i wanna come home...i cant tho cuz im under contract and i cant just leave...but like when i came home 2day i couldnt even hang with people with out any sort of dumb ass shyt...the only good thing was going 2 dinner wtih my love catherine...it was very nice she really is an awsome kid...i just feel like shyt right now and i dont know what to do anymore..i dont know who 2 turn to anymore i just feel alone just about anywhere that i go i feel alone specially 2day when i came home.. felt like shyt...i just want my friends 2 be there again...but i gusse its my fault since i left for a week and expect everything 2 be awsome and everyone 2 be ALL WELCOME SEIJI WITH OPEN ARMS i gusse that not going 2 happen..i dont want that i just want 2 see my friends for that one day...but i cant expect them 2 drop everything that they are doing just 2 hang wtih me...soo idk anymore..i jsut feel soo lost cuz up at camp i dont feel welcomed and at home i dont know what 2 think soo FUCKING SWEET! all i do know is my friends here in Wall i will never forget cuz they mean soo much to me..and my gf is just amazing Catherine i love her she is wat keeps me going everyday..and 2day was awsome that i got 2 talk 2 her and spend time wtih her...next weekend i want 2 spend time wtih everyone...people give me a call next saturday please...Please take care all i care about each and every one of u guys!

Shibblez peace

Seiji out