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I feel so jumbled now.
Like right now I am concerned about what major I want, what if Mason wasnt the school for me? What if once I decide what my major is, that this school cant even fucking cater to those interests? So i would transfer right? But what happens when you transfer? What money is involved in that. Would my tuition tranfer to that school too? I dont get it.
Only reason I am just worried right now is looking down the line and into the future I am just so uncertain about everything.
Also socially I dont see myself being happy here. Everyone here is a fucking Atypical college student. A very small percentage of this school is like me or even resembles the type of people I hang out with back home. I have choices. I want to try and get involved in stuff to integrate myself into the school. But I dont want to change who I am so I can make friends fuck that. But I dont want to be so fucking lonely on campus. The most fun I have had since college has started was went i went back home for labor day weekend. Nothing is keeping me here.
I am here for education but social aspect of college should be important as well. Everyone talks about how much they enjoyed it and how much it shaped their entire fucking experience. I am just so scatter brained right now. Would my mom be mad if down that line I decide I dont wanna go back after this semester? that I want to tranfer to like AU or something? I dont know. Also money isnt something that falls off trees. Its fucking selfish of me to think this way.
I really miss my friends at home and i am trying to make new ones but Fuck I dont like these people. I dont. I'm so depressed now while thinking about it.
Like right now I am concerned about what major I want, what if Mason wasnt the school for me? What if once I decide what my major is, that this school cant even fucking cater to those interests? So i would transfer right? But what happens when you transfer? What money is involved in that. Would my tuition tranfer to that school too? I dont get it.
Only reason I am just worried right now is looking down the line and into the future I am just so uncertain about everything.
Also socially I dont see myself being happy here. Everyone here is a fucking Atypical college student. A very small percentage of this school is like me or even resembles the type of people I hang out with back home. I have choices. I want to try and get involved in stuff to integrate myself into the school. But I dont want to change who I am so I can make friends fuck that. But I dont want to be so fucking lonely on campus. The most fun I have had since college has started was went i went back home for labor day weekend. Nothing is keeping me here.
I am here for education but social aspect of college should be important as well. Everyone talks about how much they enjoyed it and how much it shaped their entire fucking experience. I am just so scatter brained right now. Would my mom be mad if down that line I decide I dont wanna go back after this semester? that I want to tranfer to like AU or something? I dont know. Also money isnt something that falls off trees. Its fucking selfish of me to think this way.
I really miss my friends at home and i am trying to make new ones but Fuck I dont like these people. I dont. I'm so depressed now while thinking about it.