the spiderman is having me for dinner tonight
i'm really tired of hearing excuses. i'm really tired of the lies and the deceit and being let down. the next time someone does that i'm goign to burn all their hair off, i truly am.
i just want someone to say to me
its okay dan, i'm not going anywhere.
i'm going to to try my best to understand
to be there for you
to not let you down
to be honest
and to be open
i know you say stupid shit sometimes, i know you do stupid things
but i know your heart is in the right place and i know you care
so i'm going to care too
i'm not going to make you feel forgotten
but i dont know anyone who says that. or maybe i do and they just dont. as mel says, never apologize fo showing how you feel, because when you do so, you're apologizing for the truth. mel says a lot of smart things on her msn names.
i'm so tired of this lonely place i could scream. i want to love the world and i understand everyone around me to the point where i think i'm becoming psychic. i'm so in tune with my feelings that it amazes me when other people arent, or cant express them. theres gotta be someone out there like me bu i have no idea where to even start looking. and all my best friends keep turning on me and it seems everything is just fights. i'm not a fighter, i'm a lover.
"she reads the minds of the poeple as they pass her by, hoping someone will see. she matters, when everything is meaningless. fragile, she doesnt see her beauty."
i'm fragile. little things get to me because i think and think and think and think and my mind never shuts up. i analyze things over and then i try to change them, and then once i do i usually end up with a whole new fucknig situation to deal with in my head when all the talknigs over. i just wish i could shut up the voices. i just wish something, anything in my life was permanent and lasting but nothing is. everytime i see myself looking to the future positively (and i always do it now) i actually have to force myself to remember that history repeats itself and that theres a damn good chance i'm being naive to be so positive.
"once you get there, there is no there there."
so where am i?
what am i?
and what the fuck is wrong with me? am i too intense, too honest? do i care too much about everyone and just not realize no one cares about me like i do about them?
i'm going to die alone.
dan
i just want someone to say to me
its okay dan, i'm not going anywhere.
i'm going to to try my best to understand
to be there for you
to not let you down
to be honest
and to be open
i know you say stupid shit sometimes, i know you do stupid things
but i know your heart is in the right place and i know you care
so i'm going to care too
i'm not going to make you feel forgotten
but i dont know anyone who says that. or maybe i do and they just dont. as mel says, never apologize fo showing how you feel, because when you do so, you're apologizing for the truth. mel says a lot of smart things on her msn names.
i'm so tired of this lonely place i could scream. i want to love the world and i understand everyone around me to the point where i think i'm becoming psychic. i'm so in tune with my feelings that it amazes me when other people arent, or cant express them. theres gotta be someone out there like me bu i have no idea where to even start looking. and all my best friends keep turning on me and it seems everything is just fights. i'm not a fighter, i'm a lover.
"she reads the minds of the poeple as they pass her by, hoping someone will see. she matters, when everything is meaningless. fragile, she doesnt see her beauty."
i'm fragile. little things get to me because i think and think and think and think and my mind never shuts up. i analyze things over and then i try to change them, and then once i do i usually end up with a whole new fucknig situation to deal with in my head when all the talknigs over. i just wish i could shut up the voices. i just wish something, anything in my life was permanent and lasting but nothing is. everytime i see myself looking to the future positively (and i always do it now) i actually have to force myself to remember that history repeats itself and that theres a damn good chance i'm being naive to be so positive.
"once you get there, there is no there there."
so where am i?
what am i?
and what the fuck is wrong with me? am i too intense, too honest? do i care too much about everyone and just not realize no one cares about me like i do about them?
i'm going to die alone.
dan