a new realization

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OK....today was the first day that i didnt cry.....i only got tear-eyed at New World tonight..... i mean..this week has been hell....the breakup.....the rants from mother.....rumors galore....hw fest.....project mania and no time in between....my friends have been sooo great.... you all are awesome! im sooooo sry about this week...if u all are still my friends on monday....you are angels straight from heaven.....i wouldnt even put up with my crap.....i still get mother lectures that make me cry every time....(i think she just likes to see tears)..

anyways...its not like this was only a bad week for me! all of my friends had a motherload of hw....and ppl are saying shit about everyone.....guys are being jerks to them...and one of my friends' wallet got stolen! i mean...like i said earlier, they're angels! they dont deserve anything bad to happen to them....they're the ppl that truely care about everyone...they think well of everyone...and are the most loyal ppl on earth......i truely dont deserve these ppl.....but im in no way going to deny God's gift to me--- wonderful, angelic, perfect friends

to these wonderful girls:
you will find the perfect guy- he's out there wondering where you are...
you are perfect just the way you are- dont let anyone tell you differently
you deserve whatever you want-- dont let anyone treat you less than you deserve
your lives may not be perfect, but its as good as you make it
guys might not always be there- but your friends will be
love with all of your hearts-its your greatest gift, its meant to be shared
love is never a crime....even if a relationship doesnt work out---it's ok to still love them
just because a relationship doesnt work out, it doesnt mean that you didnt have something very special--- it means that something even better is on the way

I love you all! you are my sisters, my confidantes, my friends.....nothing will ever change that